Reading this is proof im not even saved and have been self-deceived!
Which one of the fruits do I exhibit?
Just look at the stuff I write on this forum, nothing but slander critique and negativity most of the time! I'll mix it up with some positivity occasionally, but OUT OF THE ABUDANCE OF THE HEART the mouth speaks (or types in this case!)
I got an evil heart thats full of hatred for people I deem faulty someway, WHILE being absolutely messed up myself. HYPOCRITE. Just look what I did previously when followhissteps posted that hillsong praise song. I looked at it, I thought in my mind "wow, these guys are soft and effeminate looking". Then I remembered all the weird stuff they do in Hillsong churches and I had to just type something negative, I COULDNT HELP MYSELF. I just had to insult them. Then after I do that i'll pray the Lord to bless them and tell Him im sorry, ONLY TO DO IT AGAIN like the rotten dog I am!
Lord help me
Which one of the fruits do I exhibit?
Just look at the stuff I write on this forum, nothing but slander critique and negativity most of the time! I'll mix it up with some positivity occasionally, but OUT OF THE ABUDANCE OF THE HEART the mouth speaks (or types in this case!)
I got an evil heart thats full of hatred for people I deem faulty someway, WHILE being absolutely messed up myself. HYPOCRITE. Just look what I did previously when followhissteps posted that hillsong praise song. I looked at it, I thought in my mind "wow, these guys are soft and effeminate looking". Then I remembered all the weird stuff they do in Hillsong churches and I had to just type something negative, I COULDNT HELP MYSELF. I just had to insult them. Then after I do that i'll pray the Lord to bless them and tell Him im sorry, ONLY TO DO IT AGAIN like the rotten dog I am!
Lord help me
Your above post gives me a lot to say.
I hope you follow along....
1. What you're experiencing is conviction of the Holy Spirit, which I believe you know what this is.
Once we know Jesus and what He would want from us, the Holy Spirit, which He sent not to condemn us but to be our helper, will tell us that we're doing something wrong. We can consider this to be sin in God's eyes and also in ours. We realize we have sinned....we ask God's forgiveness out of respect for Him because we've hurt our relationship with Him....and then we continue on; hoping to do better in the future. You'll find that as your walk with God progresses, you will get better and better at keeping a good relationship with God. We are human and we will fail at times...John addresses this problem in his 1st letter.
2. Your post teaches us an important lesson: We cannot even trust our own conscience! Our conscience does not always tell us the truth. This can be seen in secular persons that steal from stores and don't even feel guilty about it.
We can only trust our conscience when it is properly taught....We must be taught what is right and wrong and then God will give us a pure conscience so we can know when we do wrong...so if we do it, at least we can ask forgiveness and He is faithful and just to forgive us our since since we have an advocate with the Father....Jesus, His Son.
3. This is why I say that Calvinism is not correct theology. If you said the above to John Piper (I think you must know who this is) he would tell you right out that you're lost and are not one of the chosen lucky ones. I know this because I heard him say this to a crying girl with my own ears. He offered her no comfort because in that theology there is no comfort to offer. You're either chosen or your not...and if you don't show any gifts,,,,you are assumed to be not saved and you just THINK you are.
4. Happily for us,,God is a loving God, a Just God and a merciful God. He gives to everyone the opportunity to accept salvation. He said in Deuteronomy: I offer you this day death and life...choose life. This means that it is OUR CHOICE to choose God and to be saved. Amen. Thank you Lord.
All it takes is for you to WILL and WANT to be saved....and you will be.
This is why it's important to understand what the word BELIEVE means....
To believe in Jesus does not mean to just "accept" Him as Savior, as is commonly called...
It means to believe in Him as your Lord and Savior....to trust in Him....to follow Him and become a disciple of His.
So we have to learn how to follow Him and how to become a disciple...
A disciple is just someone that learns from his MASTER. Lord means Master.
And remember Romans 8:28....
God works all together for the good to those that love Him.
You've recognized a fault in yourself...God has used it to bring you closer to Him.