Emotional? Not even close! Holy Spirit? Yeah for sure because you completely ignore the fact that God can speak through a woman.
Now this is emotional. Dude don't even try and tell me I don't trust God. You have no idea what I go thru every day with my disabilities. Trust God? oh yeah come here live my life constant pain 24/7 365 and let's see how you do. God is Sovereign above all in control of everything. Nothing you do or say can save you. ONLY the blood of Christ can justify you before God. Not baptism not works not even listening to a male pastor. Yeah I'm sorry I have no idea what trust in God is.
Oh yeah how about this and most will hate this one. God has an elect!. Yep God knows who and who will not go to heaven not a thing you or I do can change that. That's how much I trust God! So if I am among God's elect that's great. If I am not among God's elect then well God's will be done because I have complete total trust and faith in God.
So you and all your friends get off your little white horses and let God speak...NOT YOU!
Well I hate to add to your misery but you have issues. Doctrinal issues. You have an incorrect view of election. There is nothing arbitrary about who is saved and who is condemned. Does God know what choice you will make? Yes. Does God force you to make that choice? Nope. Every man has a responsibility to choose between good and evil. It is a consequence of the fall in the garden. God wants you to choose Christ and the diabolical one wants you to reject Christ. You get to cast the deciding vote.
You get what you need from reading or hearing Gods word. Sermonizing male or female is not necessary to come to a saving knowledge of Christ.
We must have certainty of our salvation. Gods word requires it. His Spirit witnesses with our spirit that we are His. As His sheep we hear His voice. He knows us and we know Him.
We must choose to accept Gods grace to be saved. We certainly can do no works to obtain salvation. John 3:18-20 clearly demonstrates that the choice is made by a mans love for light or darkness.
For the cause of Christ
Roger