Who would you want to be if you could choose to be another person?

[Texasgal]

@seoulsearch has so many great threads going so I’m going to ride her coattails.

Sometimes when I’m getting up in the morning and slowly sneaking up to the mirror I can’t shake the feeling that I should have been someone else. So there, right in my sight, there’s this wild eyed, middle aged woman looking back at me with this look…and I say to her, ne sois pas si critique, ne sois pas si critique, but she is just staring me down.

She is not satisfied. So I’m thinking, how can I make you happy? Naturellement, I have to change, so I tell her that I will be someone else. I will be someone special. I tell her that I want to write a book. I tell her I want to be like Pearl S. Buck, being the first American woman to win the Nobel Prize in literature. Only I can’t, because she already won that prize. So I tell the woman in the mirror that at least I will read a book, in English, and now I am reading Pearl S. Buck.

So I would want to be a connoisseur of literature in stead of being a person barking at people.

 

[seoulsearch]

@seoulsearch has so many great threads going so I’m going to ride her coattails.

Sometimes when I’m getting up in the morning and slowly sneaking up to the mirror I can’t shake the feeling that I should have been someone else. So there, right in my sight, there’s this wild eyed, middle aged woman looking back at me with this look…and I say to her, ne sois pas si critique, ne sois pas si critique, but she is just staring me down.

She is not satisfied. So I’m thinking, how can I make you happy? Naturellement, I have to change, so I tell her that I will be someone else. I will be someone special. I tell her that I want to write a book. I tell her I want to be like Pearl S. Buck, being the first American woman to win the Nobel Prize in literature. Only I can’t, because she already won that prize. So I tell the woman in the mirror that at least I will read a book, in English, and now I am reading Pearl S. Buck.

So I would want to be a connoisseur of literature in stead of being a person barking at people.

Oh man, this is such a great question.

I know this might be seen as controversial, but growing up as an adopted Asian in a small white town... Most of my younger life, I just wanted to be someone WHITE. I just wanted to fit in. I just wanted to not have the other kids "slant" their eyes at me, or call me various stereotypes. I just wanted boys to not avoid me because I was "different." And I always thought that in order for that to happen, I had to become someone else.

Some people told me I looked biracial as it was, so there was a long time I entertained the idea of dyeing my hair lighter and getting colored contacts to look more white.

Another popular question is, "What would you change if you could go back in time?" And to be honest, when I really think about it... It probably wouldn't do much good for me to change anything in the past, because I'm sure I would have made all the same stupid decisions all over again, and this time, probably even worse.

And I'm beginning to think that about who I am as well.

We all have things we want to change. We all have people we admire, and wish we would be more like. But I think these days, God often reminds me He made me this way for a reason ("Can the clay say to the potter, 'Why did you make me this way?'")

I have a set of "letter boxes" (really just shoeboxes) of mail, drawings, and tidbits from family and friends over the years. I go through them every few years to clean and organize, as well as to remember people God blessed my life with.

Some are now with the Lord. But almost every person has said at least once, "I enjoyed your letters so much." It's made me realize that correspondence is a big part of what God has called me to do. After all, God knows the power of letters, seeing as many books of the Bible are actually letters.

And I think about how different my stories would be if I would have been another person. Sure, they might be BETTER stories. But God put me into my own story for a reason, and I've found that the main bulk of my calling is using my story to coax out the stories of others.

I certainly understand what you're saying, @Texasgal. But truth be told, I LIKE who you are. I tend to look up to people who have very unfiltered lives and are willing to share them, because it inspires me to toughen up and deal with life's hardships head-on, as they do.

Pearl S. Buck was an amazing woman.

But Texa S. Gal is pretty amazing, too, and I'm personally a lot more interested in her story than in Ms. Pearl's.

No disrespect to Ms. Pearl at all -- it's just that I find Texa. S. Gal to be much more relatable.

 

[Edith]

Être critique ce n'est pas si mauvais. Mais qu'est-ce qui ne te plaît pas vraiment, ton apparence physique? ton boulot? quoi exactement? a partir de ça tu peut faire des améliorations.

The fact that you are not satisfied means there is something you have to do or be that you are not yet. if it's your appearance you can work on it if it is a path in life then consult Your God.
From the time I had my Advance level certificate I would have loved to do medicines but my grades were not good and my parents had no money. So I went in to Biochemistry tho I did not like it. in By the 3rd year we had a huge fire accident and my family could not pay. I started working. In the course of work I fell in love with psychology and moved to do psychology, 1st year in psycho a mishap happened and 800 students had to repeat and I was among, second year, I had an accident break my leg and was in the house. I still managed to finish 2nd year and moved to third year, third year every thing was going smoothly till final semester just before the final exam, an infos came from "salles des machines" that My "fiche de scolarité" was fake.

I went to the Throne room with the air of "trop c'est trop" Postrate I wept and begged for Mercy and The Lord said and I heard it "Today Edith I am giving a covenant for service" nothing about my school. I did not understand it to be a call however I came to understand later after struggling to no avail. So I went to the seminary. Now I have a BTH and I serve as Evangelist in charge of Missions and I am fulfilled and at peace. that surpasses human understanding.

So Go to the throne room and when you get exactly what God wants you to be you will find peace and the woman in the Mirror will be only a peaceful woman looking back at you.

 

[Lynx]

Somewhere there's somebody
Who looks just like you do
Acts just like you do
Feels the same way
Somewhere there's a person
In a faraway place
With a different name
And a face that looks like you

Do you think about who it might be
Do you wonder where you are
In a distant foreign country
Riding around in another car

-Edie Brickell

 

[cinder]

I'd wanna be a dog that gets adopted by a good family as a pup and gets to lay around the house and sleep all day until my family comes home and then I get walked and played with and get to cuddle with them on the couch while we watch tv at night.

Since I can't do that, maybe I can just be a retired dog lady and stay home with my dog(s) all day.

 

[Texasgal]

Être critique ce n'est pas si mauvais. Mais qu'est-ce qui ne te plaît pas vraiment, ton apparence physique? ton boulot? quoi exactement? a partir de ça tu peut faire des améliorations.

The fact that you are not satisfied means there is something you have to do or be that you are not yet. if it's your appearance you can work on it if it is a path in life then consult Your God.
From the time I had my Advance level certificate I would have loved to do medicines but my grades were not good and my parents had no money. So I went in to Biochemistry tho I did not like it. in By the 3rd year we had a huge fire accident and my family could not pay. I started working. In the course of work I fell in love with psychology and moved to do psychology, 1st year in psycho a mishap happened and 800 students had to repeat and I was among, second year, I had an accident break my leg and was in the house. I still managed to finish 2nd year and moved to third year, third year every thing was going smoothly till final semester just before the final exam, an infos came from "salles des machines" that My "fiche de scolarité" was fake.

I went to the Throne room with the air of "trop c'est trop" Postrate I wept and begged for Mercy and The Lord said and I heard it "Today Edith I am giving a covenant for service" nothing about my school. I did not understand it to be a call however I came to understand later after struggling to no avail. So I went to the seminary. Now I have a BTH and I serve as Evangelist in charge of Missions and I am fulfilled and at peace. that surpasses human understanding.

So Go to the throne room and when you get exactly what God wants you to be you will find peace and the woman in the Mirror will be only a peaceful woman looking back at you.

To be honest I don’t like who I have become. All what I have done is haunting me. I dream about it in the night, always searching for a new crusade to forget the past ones.

I wish I could say “Non, je ne regrette rien”, but I have to say je regrette.

 

[RodB651]

There have been times when I wished I was somebody else. But all these years later, life experiences have brought me where I am and made me who I am today.

I'll hold on to that.

 

[Tall_Timbers]

I'm pleased enough to be me, but if I could have, I should have pursued things that would have led me to being a CFO of a large corporation. I think that's the job I might have been best suite for with the gifts I have.

The idea of being someone else would mean I would also inherit all of their problems and I've already experienced enough of my own and survived most of them.

 

[Lynx]

I'm not rich.
I'm not famous.
I'm not powerful.
I don't even have a wife.

But I'm happy.

Nope. Wouldn't change a thing.

 

[Edith]

To be honest I don’t like who I have become. All what I have done is haunting me. I dream about it in the night, always searching for a new crusade to forget the past ones.

I wish I could say “Non, je ne regrette rien”, but I have to say je regrette.

I am on this verse right now
Colossians 2:12-15
I have been working the whole week on this one Roman 8:33-39

The Love of God for you is unshakable inébranlable. nothing can take you from the love of God, no power. So take authority in the name and in the blood of the Lamb and come against any spirit that is making you think you are not worthy.

A secret or an open secret, God is ready to use you, He want to use even with the personality you seem not to like.

God loves you girl walk in his love

 

[Edith]

I'm not rich.
I'm not famous.
I'm not powerful.
I don't even have a wife.

But I'm happy.

Nope. Wouldn't change a thing.

Brother I don't envy you, I am happy for you

 

[Edith]

I'm pleased enough to be me, but if I could have, I should have pursued things that would have led me to being a CFO of a large corporation. I think that's the job I might have been best suite for with the gifts I have.

The idea of being someone else would mean I would also inherit all of their problems and I've already experienced enough of my own and survived most of them.

Your post make me smile. I am like I have not experienced enough of my life too

 

[Karlon]

no one, definitely no one!

 

[Rosemaryx]

I am who I am by the Grace of God
I am glad I am not who I used to be Amen...

 

[Snackersmom]

I would be @Texasgal

 

[Texasgal]

I would be @Texasgal

No, you wouldn’t.

 

[Snackersmom]

No, you wouldn’t.

Don't judge my choices, woman!

 

[Texasgal]

Don't judge my choices, woman!

I can tell that you’re being serious about this, so you, me and my ol’ buddy Jim from out of Kentucky gonna lay down the preliminaries for you on being Texasgal!

Gonna get ugly, but it is what it is.

 

[NotMakingThisUp]

@seoulsearch has so many great threads going so I’m going to ride her coattails.

Sometimes when I’m getting up in the morning and slowly sneaking up to the mirror I can’t shake the feeling that I should have been someone else. So there, right in my sight, there’s this wild eyed, middle aged woman looking back at me with this look…and I say to her, ne sois pas si critique, ne sois pas si critique, but she is just staring me down.

She is not satisfied. So I’m thinking, how can I make you happy? Naturellement, I have to change, so I tell her that I will be someone else. I will be someone special. I tell her that I want to write a book. I tell her I want to be like Pearl S. Buck, being the first American woman to win the Nobel Prize in literature. Only I can’t, because she already won that prize. So I tell the woman in the mirror that at least I will read a book, in English, and now I am reading Pearl S. Buck.

So I would want to be a connoisseur of literature in stead of being a person barking at people.

I used to be different. Now I’m the same…..good here!

 

[Snackersmom]

I can tell that you’re being serious about this, so you, me and my ol’ buddy Jim from out of Kentucky gonna lay down the preliminaries for you on being Texasgal!

Gonna get ugly, but it is what it is.

Well see now, I'm farm-raised through and through, so about 30 times scrappier than I look. But not sayin' I got what it takes, just willin' to learn.