I've been told countless times that you cant be on the fence when it comes to Christ, my problem is that I don't even know where the fence is. I don't know which direction I'm going in either. a few months ago I got really "religious" and went to church every Sunday and Wednesday nights. the problem with that is I was trying to do it without God, so know I feel like I've been set back further than I was before. The thing is, is that before I was actually motivated to "get closer to God", but I wasn't being motivated by God. I was being motivated by the way people appreciated me. it was kind of a self riotousness thing that I didn't realize was happening until later on.
So basically i feel stuck and I don't know what to do now. I don't think I've ever had an "experience with Christ" as some say. I don't know if I need to be patient and wait for the time, or if waiting would be a bad thing. I've been confused about this for quite a while now, and I don't know what to do.
For some reason I feel like me going to hell is inevitable. I'm not trying to get all gloom and doom, but heaven just seems like something I will never be able to achieve. I feel like I will never be accepted into the kingdom of heaven (not because of God, but because of myself). I don't know what's going on with me, but I haven't read my bible in a while I quit going to my studies and I've felt guilty going to church( because I feel like a fraud).
I haven't had anyone to really talk to about this, and just typing this has made me feel better.
Thank you for reading
-Josh
So basically i feel stuck and I don't know what to do now. I don't think I've ever had an "experience with Christ" as some say. I don't know if I need to be patient and wait for the time, or if waiting would be a bad thing. I've been confused about this for quite a while now, and I don't know what to do.
For some reason I feel like me going to hell is inevitable. I'm not trying to get all gloom and doom, but heaven just seems like something I will never be able to achieve. I feel like I will never be accepted into the kingdom of heaven (not because of God, but because of myself). I don't know what's going on with me, but I haven't read my bible in a while I quit going to my studies and I've felt guilty going to church( because I feel like a fraud).
I haven't had anyone to really talk to about this, and just typing this has made me feel better.
Thank you for reading
-Josh
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