I'm proud to declare that i'm not dating nor looking either

i'm done with that nonsense XD
I'm just prayerfully waiting on Papa GOD to bring me together with that pleasantly weird, wonderfully crazy, uber hot and cool, beautifully holy man that HE has in store for me

someday, when we're both ready. In HIS perfect time
I used to be so insecure, thinking that i have to do something to get the attention of the one who i think just might be "the one"...trying so hard to be the quintessential "dream girl" that he just couldn't resist. And yes, i have gotten their attention, and even their focus. But i come to realize that the fear just gets worse...knowing that they really never pursued me, and that i stand the risk of losing them and their affections if i don't keep my juggling act going and becoming more awesome by the minute...*sigh* it was just all SO pathetic and SO wrong!!!
When i finally realized my true worth before our LORD, and have come to discover the depth and awesomeness of HIS love for me, i finally learned to value and love myself just as HE does, and to trust HIM completely in HIS plan and will for my life. Now, i want the love that HE wants for me to receive

that perfect love that casts out all fear, pure, beautiful, and awe-inspiring. I want only that person HE has set apart for me (and set me apart for), and no one else
I don't have to be anything i'm not. And i don't have to be attractive to every man in this world. I just have to be everything that Papa GOD wants me to be. HIS daughter that abides in HIM, is inspired by HIM, walking with HIM daily, singing HIS praises, following HIS call, delighting in HIM, and resting and trusting in HIS love. With all my crazy quirks, and everything that makes me unique as is XD HE will bring out the very best in me, and beautify me from the inside out. HE will prepare me for everything, including meeting my one special guy who "sees" me
So for the meantime, while i'm waiting, i'll just keep on spreading love and craziness here at CC XD have to do some good and stave off the boredom at the same time!!!