Hey everyone,
so go easy with me i am new snd not sure were to post. Also please go easy on me for what i am struggling with.
Good place to start is I guess at the beginning.
A little while ago i was really struggling with some family problems and it really did destroy me for a while. To cope i used to walk sometimes endless around where I live, literally just around the streets with constant thoughts racing around my head.
One day and I genuinely do not know why i found myself walking around the church gardens where i was married 32 years ago and again unsure why i found myself sitting in the church. Stayed for about an hour didn't talk to anyone just sat thinking. Anyway from then on for around 3 weeks went back everyday at some point during my walk never spoke to anyone apart from a few good mornings. Now i better just say I don’t think i was going there for any other reason than it stopped me from just pounding the streets and gave me time to think, i never considered praying for help or anything because i just was not religious in any way. Ok i used to sit there constantly thinking to myself i really would do anything for all my problems to sort themselves out and for me to try and get back to some sort of life again. So now for the strange thing or at least one if them. After a while of me sitting there I suppose you could say talking to myself in my messed up head, one day i had what I actually thought was a headache starting. But it was a strange feeling because it didn’t actually hurt, it was more of a feeling like something was gently pushing on my head but from the inside Really really strange feeling that I suppose left me feeling sort of relaxed, and I appreciate how this will sound becyit certainly does to me. Anyway after about 3 weeks things did take a really really sudden turn for the better, which i just thought was due to things just getting better through time and nothing else. Hey ho absolutely great i get back to sort of normal and i will admit never went back in to the church.
So here we were a while down the line thinking everything had happened because it just did and something really really strange happened to me. Not just me but someone who is even more of a non believer than me.
The person in question is a neighbour of sort snd he asked me one day if i could get him some bits out of his loft because he just couldn’t manage anymore on account of his legs. He could get up the ladder but not actually get off it in to the loft. Anyway he went up it to open the loft for me and while doing so rather stupidly in slippers he lost a footing. Did not come off it but nearly. So as he lost his foot i instinctively grab his calf to stop his foot. Now the strange bit. He sort of just stopped and said something about my nails scratching him which anyone who knows me will say impossible because i bite them to the skin. So he gets down and as strange and unbelievable as this sounds tells me i must have squeezed his leg or something because all the pain had gone he says just like that. Lots of jokes made and no more thought of it.
I genuinely didn’t give it a thought until 5 days ago. My Grandson fell over while we were walking my dog. So being a typical 8 year old it was the worse pain ever, but i must admit he did go down hard on his shoulder. So i tried the normal grandad thing and gave it a big grandad rub. Well i just don’t know what went on but he suddenly says grandad whats that funny feeling from your fingers. 9 year olds way of describing and then he says thats cool grandad does hurt a bit. So I suppose i did sort of think about the feelings in my fingers after my neighbour sort of saying about the feeling in his leg but the thought soon went. Anyway i am to stop this massive post going to say for various there have been 4 other lets call them episodes of this apparent funny feeling from my fingers when i have touched people and i dont mean because i knew someone had something wrong but innocent things like shaking hands with someone who suffered apparently with bad pain in his hand snd so he says he now does not.
So my reason for coming here is anyone know what is going on here
I am a complete non believer in this sort of thing or at least i was. It has never ever in my 58 years happened before and i am absolutely baffled. As i said i never went in to the church looking for anything apart from a seat and a bit of peace and come away with very very strange feelings and bang my problems get better and now apparently my fingers give people funny feelings and help them with things. Just to be clear it doesn’t happen with everyone but people who seem to have an ache or pain or two. I am extremely confused snd after lots of looking on the internet even more so so thought I have asked elsewhere so why not here.
Apologies for waffling but trying to put this in to something thst makes sense is very hard for me.
I have joined another site as i really need to try and make sense of this.
Thanks everyone
so go easy with me i am new snd not sure were to post. Also please go easy on me for what i am struggling with.
Good place to start is I guess at the beginning.
A little while ago i was really struggling with some family problems and it really did destroy me for a while. To cope i used to walk sometimes endless around where I live, literally just around the streets with constant thoughts racing around my head.
One day and I genuinely do not know why i found myself walking around the church gardens where i was married 32 years ago and again unsure why i found myself sitting in the church. Stayed for about an hour didn't talk to anyone just sat thinking. Anyway from then on for around 3 weeks went back everyday at some point during my walk never spoke to anyone apart from a few good mornings. Now i better just say I don’t think i was going there for any other reason than it stopped me from just pounding the streets and gave me time to think, i never considered praying for help or anything because i just was not religious in any way. Ok i used to sit there constantly thinking to myself i really would do anything for all my problems to sort themselves out and for me to try and get back to some sort of life again. So now for the strange thing or at least one if them. After a while of me sitting there I suppose you could say talking to myself in my messed up head, one day i had what I actually thought was a headache starting. But it was a strange feeling because it didn’t actually hurt, it was more of a feeling like something was gently pushing on my head but from the inside Really really strange feeling that I suppose left me feeling sort of relaxed, and I appreciate how this will sound becyit certainly does to me. Anyway after about 3 weeks things did take a really really sudden turn for the better, which i just thought was due to things just getting better through time and nothing else. Hey ho absolutely great i get back to sort of normal and i will admit never went back in to the church.
So here we were a while down the line thinking everything had happened because it just did and something really really strange happened to me. Not just me but someone who is even more of a non believer than me.
The person in question is a neighbour of sort snd he asked me one day if i could get him some bits out of his loft because he just couldn’t manage anymore on account of his legs. He could get up the ladder but not actually get off it in to the loft. Anyway he went up it to open the loft for me and while doing so rather stupidly in slippers he lost a footing. Did not come off it but nearly. So as he lost his foot i instinctively grab his calf to stop his foot. Now the strange bit. He sort of just stopped and said something about my nails scratching him which anyone who knows me will say impossible because i bite them to the skin. So he gets down and as strange and unbelievable as this sounds tells me i must have squeezed his leg or something because all the pain had gone he says just like that. Lots of jokes made and no more thought of it.
I genuinely didn’t give it a thought until 5 days ago. My Grandson fell over while we were walking my dog. So being a typical 8 year old it was the worse pain ever, but i must admit he did go down hard on his shoulder. So i tried the normal grandad thing and gave it a big grandad rub. Well i just don’t know what went on but he suddenly says grandad whats that funny feeling from your fingers. 9 year olds way of describing and then he says thats cool grandad does hurt a bit. So I suppose i did sort of think about the feelings in my fingers after my neighbour sort of saying about the feeling in his leg but the thought soon went. Anyway i am to stop this massive post going to say for various there have been 4 other lets call them episodes of this apparent funny feeling from my fingers when i have touched people and i dont mean because i knew someone had something wrong but innocent things like shaking hands with someone who suffered apparently with bad pain in his hand snd so he says he now does not.
So my reason for coming here is anyone know what is going on here
I am a complete non believer in this sort of thing or at least i was. It has never ever in my 58 years happened before and i am absolutely baffled. As i said i never went in to the church looking for anything apart from a seat and a bit of peace and come away with very very strange feelings and bang my problems get better and now apparently my fingers give people funny feelings and help them with things. Just to be clear it doesn’t happen with everyone but people who seem to have an ache or pain or two. I am extremely confused snd after lots of looking on the internet even more so so thought I have asked elsewhere so why not here.
Apologies for waffling but trying to put this in to something thst makes sense is very hard for me.
I have joined another site as i really need to try and make sense of this.
Thanks everyone
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I was almost fifty when I was baptized 
