a group of people are getting ready to tell me that I am no longer needed, so I have been told. My "friend" has been told to break things off with me and he has been planning how to do it. As perhaps they have too. In reality their crisis is over, my season of usefulness has come to an end.
Endings are hard. In Ecclesiastes there is a time for everthing. And a season. A time to love, a time to die, a time to build up and a time to tear down. It hurts endings - the feeling of being valued even if it was forced is over. Were they just using me , i know that in a way they were, but from my perspective as it was for God's purposes it kind of cushions the rejection as I was doing what I did to show the love of God or to share it. TIme has moved on and my services are no longer required, and it will leave a hole for a while as for a while I felt some acceptance it was like having friends again or what it must feel like to have some - now it is ending it hurts, I pray that God will bring renewal with another season of doing something else in some capacity somewhere in the world.
Endings are hard. In Ecclesiastes there is a time for everthing. And a season. A time to love, a time to die, a time to build up and a time to tear down. It hurts endings - the feeling of being valued even if it was forced is over. Were they just using me , i know that in a way they were, but from my perspective as it was for God's purposes it kind of cushions the rejection as I was doing what I did to show the love of God or to share it. TIme has moved on and my services are no longer required, and it will leave a hole for a while as for a while I felt some acceptance it was like having friends again or what it must feel like to have some - now it is ending it hurts, I pray that God will bring renewal with another season of doing something else in some capacity somewhere in the world.
