There's a frightening reality in the Christian life these days and throughout history that few dare to admit nor discuss because of the inherent discomforts this topic stirs within the mind and heart of professing believers the world over.
SIN!
"Oh, no! Not ANOTHER thread on the topic of secret, hidden sin! Why won't people just leave this one alone?
I know, I'll just click out of this thread and go to more mild pastures where I can enjoy milk-toast and wet-noodle topics that don't challenge me to to greater heights of righteousness..."
Meanwhile, if one dares attend one of those rare pulpit-pounding sermons against sin, that one may cry over his or her sins, feel deeply moved in a religious service, even build up enough courage to walk up to the front while moved by an emotional song; they even soak the rarely opened Bible with tears and still never actually repent (change of mind).
Most know how to be broken in the moment, but they don't change enough to refrain from the same sins in the hours, days, weeks or months that follow. Most feel real bad inside but say to the Lord that they're so very sorry. We promise God that this time, this time indeed, it will all be different...and yet the pattern of sinful life repeats again and again and again...ad infinitum.
The emotions are always so strong at the realization that they've fallen yet again from those same sins but the chains of bondage remain intact and constraining. The sin returns like a familiar visitor; like an unwelcome guest and yet they open the door wide because, in truth, they've never moved out of the house where all those sins live.
We're so good at becoming fluent in sorrowful shows before the eyes of others and even our own image in the mirror, but we're still a stranger to true, lasting repentance.
Charles Spurgeon once warned that there is a pseudo-repentance that needs to be repented of in so many lives. He wasn't necessarily mocking all the shed tears but rather exposing a shallow kind of sorrow that leaves the heart untouched to the depths of one's being. Sin-scape overflowing through so many lives can fill altars but it doesn't empty strongholds. It can produce convulsive weeping without killing a single sin. This kind of false repentance isn't a minor weakness. It's a deadly self-deception to a life desiring righteousness, but never seeming capable of finding and embracing it.
What are your experiences with this phenomenon? I'm not looking for open confessions here, especially those that would violate the sensibilities of others with crudeness and pollution of the minds of others. It's between you and the Lord, but speaking of this ever so common problem in these bodies of death and sin we occupy, what have you learned about yourself in how to beat down and utterly defeat the sins in your life that were so hard to defeat...IF you have indeed defeated those recurring sins?
MM
Been in process by Father teaching truth to me personally. "I" can't do it, No person of any flesh can or could but Son for me, you and all others as well. We each can do much 1 Cor 13:1-3 yet I needed to see my inability Gal 6:1-9 and get imputed 1 Cor 13:4-7 by Father for me, as I can only speak for me humbly as not better than anyone else ever.
Years, trapped under Law, to not do, by that is what I kept doing, been g under Law. Now doing less of those as did before as Paul talks of in Romans 7. Which I could not fathom even after reading the same chapter over and over and over and over and over again and again
Finally seeing Phil 1-3 deeper and deeper, I have to get out from underneath law leading me in this unredeemed flesh body. seeing me as dead daily in the first born flesh. Romans 6:1-12
God does the true teaching, people do not, not even myself
I gave up under Law to now uphold Law and rejoice in Psalm 1:1-4
Remembering daily to be willingly dead to me and others around me. Yet, listen and share and edify is the goal I see God has for us all to love in the same mercy and truth of Son given us each willingly. John 13:34
Yes, bad habits have grown weaker and weaker and some I know are gone and I remain humbly thankful, not proud anymore as if I am better than others Luke 18:9-14, Romans 2:1-4. Matthew 18:24-35