I commend you on your dedication to study. And believe that you are sincere in your beliefs, but I encourage you to keep an open mind to the scriptures that I am referring to you.
The largest problem with almost all of the regenerated children of God is; that they do not understand the difference in the salvation scriptures. Salvation, saved and save, by Strong's interpretation, means; deliverance, delivered and deliver. The scriptures teach that there is an eternal deliverance, and there are deliverance's that the regenerate receive here in time.
The scriptures, also, teach that the truths of the doctrine of Christ are limited to the few, the remnant, the 144000. and become a mystery to the rest of God's regenerated children. I do not understand many of God's purposes, and this one confuses me the most, because the doctrine of Christ is the most comforting, secure, and peace offering doctrine of any that I have confronted.
I realise that Christ's doctrine is very unpopular with the majority, because of the limitation of it, and rightly so, but it has always been accepted in this way sense the days in which Christ preached it himself.
I know, without a doubt, that I will receive the harshest criticism from all on this forum, and be tagged as conceded, and prideful, but all that I ask, is that you keep an open mind, and seriously think about what I am presenting.