So..... I’m thinking you have the mantle of an Evangelist because you are very passionate to share the gospel...all that Jesus Christ has done to save us.
There are Apostles, Prophets, Evangelists, Pastors and Teachers.
I think I fall under the Teacher category....I’m the most passionate about the “why”....the understanding of it all.
Although it is in God’s Heart to save us......WHY does He choose to save us....
God’s Heart has a desire to have a relationship with us, He doesn’t want to live without us.
He wants to be with all those that take the time to know Him and love Him....
Early in the morning, as the sun is rising while the dew is still on the ground.... read your Holy Bible.
By so doing, you will be eating your daily provision of manna.....God’s Word first thing in the morning is sooooo sweet!
I grab a cup of coffee and my Bible and snuggle with the Holy Spirit....to whom I ask tons and tons of questions while I read the Bible. A great start to every day! Enjoy! 

that is beautiful every word , I truly can’t express the appreciation in my heart for your comment and heart shares with me
I’m not sure what gifts the lord has for each of us individually but I believe
if we are open to the lords word it comes from some of the most unsuspecting places and each of us have many gifts even if we haven’t yet known . Like fruit they eventually begin to bloom
A humble Worker at a church reception desk might have a word or power and freedom of we’re not too proud to listen , the Christian janitor in a workplace if we’re not thinking he’s a mere janitor , a teenager who spends time in youth group of we aren’t to educated and mature to open ears , the elderly that we sometimes over look seem to always have wisdom to impart , the greatest gift is humility and open ears to the words of our lord and savior Jesus Christ
As to why God does what he does , I think it’s somewhere in the realm of a fathers love for his children , even the rebellious ones . We are very important to Gods creation people fill the earth without people it’s an empty planet
Gods plan is to fill the earth with those with the character of Jesus Christ who don’t create a world of violence perversions and war and false gods with the dominion he gives us like we did the first time
“And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea. And I John saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a great voice out of heaven saying, Behold, the tabernacle of God is with men, and he will dwell with them, and they shall be his people, and God himself shall be with them, and be their God. And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away. And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.”
Revelation 21:1-5 KJV
that was the plan in the beginning but Satan led man astray , His plan will come to pass when things are restored he loves us and wants a people and family to return that love