but we can not come to the father unless he draws us.
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I like the humility and openness of your whole post but only highlighted this portion because it is actually a MISquote of what Jesus said in John 6:44. (Please re-read it and the verse before and after)
Jesus was saying that they wouldn't come to himself (the son, the sent of God, the messiah) unless they learn how to learn directly from GOD by seeking GOD directly.
Verse 43 =Jesus was advising them not discuss it amongst themselves (aka don't rely on the thoughts of man or even your own thoughts).
Verse 44= Jesus advising them to go discuss it with God DIRECTLY because you need to learn how to let God teach you directly if you want to discern and follow those that God actually sends. Because....
Verse 45 = It has already been prophesied that nobody has to tell the true followers of God to go pray about it until God himself makes it clear to them because the only way they GOT to that status was BY seeking God directly until he made it clear to them.
I'll give two (biblical) illustrations of that concept:
First... Consider Peter at the last supper and in the garden. Peter thought he could stand by his own conviction + determination... But Jesus told him basically " Look, if you don't learn how to get power from above, you won't stand no matter how hard you try. You NEED to get some things directly from God in prayer," (Mark 14:38, Luke 22:46) Peter failed to go to God directly, and he therefore failed to stand... as was predicted.
Well, I had another example from another angle but I seem to have forgotten it while explaining the first one. Sorry for that.
I'm still hoping the point so far was clear enough to understand. When typing on a phone its hard to see how it looks/reads as a finished product.
Love in Jesus,
Kelby