I've seen a few decades, but my age is not really the issue. Instead, I have prayed many times for God's will to be done in my life, and he has stripped me of everything, maybe just for a very long season, so that I might totally devote myself to him and accomplish the purpose for which I was born.
I hope that is the case. If not, then my life has pretty much been a failure, but I do believe that God has led me to this place of absolute surrender. Like I said before, it is a very scary place, but I also believe it is a very necessary place.
Thank you for the welcome.