Hi all, only a useless christian who is getting over whining. I need people to pray that I have a better prayer life with continual stability and results from it as my prayer are the same nearly every day and i do not see why to pray anything else as I cover all bases with a simple prayer. But nothing changes in my life. I am a worse person after becoming a christian. Probably because there is nothing in a christian life (like mine) to fill the gap of hours of gaming/movies/drinking/goingout/having fun/ ciggarettes and more.
It seems a bit of a rip-off except for when I die. I get nothing now and something at death is what it looks like. But i also want to get over my desire to want more than this "christian contented nothingness". So I need prayer for these things as I am not much use as a person. My prayers do not seem to get answered. I do not know where, what, why, what with, etc, I am going or doing or what for. My life seems better to end rather than drag it out doing notihing and having nothing. Why wait doing nothing. No-one seems to be being saved and i'm no great evangelist or youtuber or other with any support from God that I see, hear, feel or experience except the odd vision warning to go back to church or whatever. No clue what this "weak christianity" is for in my life. It is such a dissapointment. I feel robbed some days, only to be rewarded in death with something no one knows what. Any prayer appreciated as I am obviously not a happy clappy type who is blessed with positive thinking. Just a lifelong loser.
It seems a bit of a rip-off except for when I die. I get nothing now and something at death is what it looks like. But i also want to get over my desire to want more than this "christian contented nothingness". So I need prayer for these things as I am not much use as a person. My prayers do not seem to get answered. I do not know where, what, why, what with, etc, I am going or doing or what for. My life seems better to end rather than drag it out doing notihing and having nothing. Why wait doing nothing. No-one seems to be being saved and i'm no great evangelist or youtuber or other with any support from God that I see, hear, feel or experience except the odd vision warning to go back to church or whatever. No clue what this "weak christianity" is for in my life. It is such a dissapointment. I feel robbed some days, only to be rewarded in death with something no one knows what. Any prayer appreciated as I am obviously not a happy clappy type who is blessed with positive thinking. Just a lifelong loser.
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