I just ate an entire cantaloupe.
Sometimes I think that is part of the healing process. An opportunity to step out of difficult situations to allow the mind and body to rest from the struggles we face. But we are in trouble if we stay there, aren't we? There comes a time when we stand up, brush ourselves off, realize that God has us in the palm of His hand, and kick depression's behind.
Still praying for you, ww.![]()
We did used to live together in college and we loved it, but she's married now so at this point it'd be kind of awkward.![]()
I lived with my sister an her husband for a year. It was actually really fun with minimal awkwardness. I miss it.
just_monicat, are you extroverted? I'm introverted so moving is usually daunting to me, new places and new people and such.
More cake. .This time key lime with homemade key lime butter cream icing View attachment 73594
This was probably very irritating for you, but the way you wrote it made me throw my head back and laugh... I can just picture you tipping your chin down, smiling really big and widening your eyes until you looked insane. Heh heh heh...
Btw, I love people whose eyes crinkle like that when they smile.![]()
And now I want a cantaloupe. Om nom nom nom.
satan really hates it when we try and do the right thing, doesn't he? He wants revenge. Funny how he has a way of using people you would never have expected to exact it. It's okay though. God is good and He always wins.![]()
I feel strange right now. Maybe it's because I've been alone so many days in a row (my parents have been out of town) so I've had too much time to think. But, I'm feeling antsy. Like I want to move somewhere far away, like Denver or back out to South Dakota. Live on my own. Start a new journey.
I shouldn't feel that way. I have a good job here (though not great pay, even being full time), I live with my parents so I don't have rent or typical "living" bills. But I feel...stuck. Discontent. Whether it be something spiritually wrong deep inside me, a typical "early 20s" type deal, or any combination of other things...I just don't know.
Since we're all admitting stuff and admitting what we truly feel - depression is kicking my behind once more. I slept all night last night, all day today... all day yesterday. I'd rather sleep it off than feel or think about anything.
Yesterday I was thinking about how there are no potential guys for me here. None that I know of, at least. It's a small town, so unless someone new comes in, or God opens my heart in a very big, different way towards someone, it's not looking promising.
Then, last night, I had a dream. Usually, my crush shows up in my dream. This time, I was on a date, and it was going really well, but...it actually wasn't my crush, or anyone from around here that I knew, actually. I don't put much stock in dreams, like at all, and maybe it's just been because I was thinking about it, but it almost seemed like my mind or God was saying, "Rachel, the world is more than [where I live]." So to speak. I dunno. It was...reassuring.
Not that I'm super hung up on it. I'm 97% okay with being single, honestly, but that 3% can get frustrating when it seems like there is not much out there where I am.