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Today marks 100 years since the First World War started.
Oh, wow. I had no idea. Thank God for His hope in seriously dark times.
Today marks 100 years since the First World War started.
It's a beautiful night tonight. We have the windows open and the attic fan on because it's so nice and cool outside. I'm sitting in the comfy arm chair in my room with just the lamp on, sheer white curtains flowing gently around me since the chair is in between two windows. Lit a pumpkin spice candle and a cinnamon latte candle so it smells heavenly
It feels like fall, definitely not like the end of July. I am okay with this. Fall is my favorite and I'm so ready for it! Then again, I'm not much of a summer girl at all, so I've been ready for fall since...mid-June or so.Though, this has been a fairly mild summer.
It's a beautiful night tonight. We have the windows open and the attic fan on because it's so nice and cool outside. I'm sitting in the comfy arm chair in my room with just the lamp on, sheer white curtains flowing gently around me since the chair is in between two windows. Lit a pumpkin spice candle and a cinnamon latte candle so it smells heavenly
It feels like fall, definitely not like the end of July. I am okay with this. Fall is my favorite and I'm so ready for it! Then again, I'm not much of a summer girl at all, so I've been ready for fall since...mid-June or so.Though, this has been a fairly mild summer.
I keep getting knock over and over and over again and every time I do.. I break a little more. When I break a little more... I lost faith in God a little more.
Today marks 100 years since the First World War started.
That's so sad.
You know, it's still been less than 100 years that women have been allowed to vote
I can totally relate to this. When I was working at a large department store I saw this man pulling his daughter by the ear as they were headed out the door and the young girl (probably around 8-10yrs old) had this look of intense pain on her face and her face was beet red and she looked like she wanted to yell but couldn't because of the pain this man was causing her. I wanted so badly to confront the man but they went by me so fast and were already out the doors and I needed to get back from my break.I was sitting behind the lights, waiting to turn right in to the shopping car park to buy some groceries. As I looked at the car in front of me, I watched as a teenage/young adult couple were in the middle of an argument. Well, a one sided argument. The girl, maybe 17-18 years old was quietly slouched in the drivers seat, fighting back tears, as her boyfriend went berserk on her. He was pointing the finger at her, getting right in her face and yelling. He had a very domineering countenance. Now I don't know what the argument was about, but everything about what he was doing just screamed 'No'. For what ever reason he was angry, there was no reason for him to yell at her the way he was.
When I walked in to the shopping centre/mall, I was intensely rolling over what I saw and was fuming. I just wanted to grab that girl and tell the guy what I thought of him. I thought of what I would say if I saw them come my direction in the shops, and played many situations in my head.
Before I realised it, I came to the entrance of the grocery store. I didn't realise the little automatic opening entrance to the grocery store (that waist high metal frame thing with 'entrance' written on it that takes forever to register your presence to swing open) was in front of me. Lost in thought, I ran it to it, then instinctively thrust my arms out quite aggressively.
Someone was still in Hulk mode after their gym session.
I came across this again this morning, and I couldn't help but share it. I have probably seen this clip a hundred times and it gives me this joy every time. I fully expect to see Jesus walk out at the end.
[video=youtube;LLzQGkNG3dA]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLzQGkNG3dA[/video]
I told my ex that we can try to work on things.
I know a lot of people will think I'm stupid for agreeing to this. That's ok.
He's really trying. Not the way I've seen him "try" before, but really putting honest effort into understanding what I've told him the problem(s) were from my point of view, without turning it around on me.
We sat outside on my new front step last night, with the door open behind us, and listened to the kids playing and watched a thunderstorm roll in as we talked.
I won't claim that I feel as though God is "telling" me to give this a try...honestly, I have no idea right now what God wants me to do. I've been praying for discernment in all this...wisdom, so maybe I'll see it sooner if my ex is only putting on an act. But also, I don't want to be so paranoid that he might be putting on a show that I don't give him a real chance to prove otherwise.
Baby steps. That's really all I can do right now...move forward with extreme caution. I want it to work out. I've gotten past a lot of the anger. I've gotten to a point where I can forgive if there is remorse...and I think there is. I don't know when/if I'll be able to trust him. But I want to try.
Am I insane? Or just stupid? So many questions I don't know if I want the answers to.
I told my ex that we can try to work on things.
I know a lot of people will think I'm stupid for agreeing to this. That's ok.
He's really trying. Not the way I've seen him "try" before, but really putting honest effort into understanding what I've told him the problem(s) were from my point of view, without turning it around on me.
We sat outside on my new front step last night, with the door open behind us, and listened to the kids playing and watched a thunderstorm roll in as we talked.
I won't claim that I feel as though God is "telling" me to give this a try...honestly, I have no idea right now what God wants me to do. I've been praying for discernment in all this...wisdom, so maybe I'll see it sooner if my ex is only putting on an act. But also, I don't want to be so paranoid that he might be putting on a show that I don't give him a real chance to prove otherwise.
Baby steps. That's really all I can do right now...move forward with extreme caution. I want it to work out. I've gotten past a lot of the anger. I've gotten to a point where I can forgive if there is remorse...and I think there is. I don't know when/if I'll be able to trust him. But I want to try.
Am I insane? Or just stupid? So many questions I don't know if I want the answers to.
I told my ex that we can try to work on things.
I know a lot of people will think I'm stupid for agreeing to this. That's ok.
He's really trying. Not the way I've seen him "try" before, but really putting honest effort into understanding what I've told him the problem(s) were from my point of view, without turning it around on me.
We sat outside on my new front step last night, with the door open behind us, and listened to the kids playing and watched a thunderstorm roll in as we talked.
I won't claim that I feel as though God is "telling" me to give this a try...honestly, I have no idea right now what God wants me to do. I've been praying for discernment in all this...wisdom, so maybe I'll see it sooner if my ex is only putting on an act. But also, I don't want to be so paranoid that he might be putting on a show that I don't give him a real chance to prove otherwise.
Baby steps. That's really all I can do right now...move forward with extreme caution. I want it to work out. I've gotten past a lot of the anger. I've gotten to a point where I can forgive if there is remorse...and I think there is. I don't know when/if I'll be able to trust him. But I want to try.
Am I insane? Or just stupid? So many questions I don't know if I want the answers to.
"Will you have war?" "I will have WORE"
Say it right people.
I told my ex that we can try to work on things.
I know a lot of people will think I'm stupid for agreeing to this. That's ok.
Baby steps. That's really all I can do right now...move forward with extreme caution. I want it to work out. I've gotten past a lot of the anger. I've gotten to a point where I can forgive if there is remorse...and I think there is. I don't know when/if I'll be able to trust him. But I want to try.
Am I insane? Or just stupid? So many questions I don't know if I want the answers to.