Today's goal: survive.
You know, without throwing anything through the TV screen when my kid wants to watch Veggie Tales for the 50th time in a row.
Or wanting to jump out the window when the baby attacks my three year old and he screams like he's dying.
Or wanting to join in with any of the numerous tantrums that are thrown throughout the day.
Maybe I should just go back to bed.
Honestly, I wish someone told me NOT to do it when I was a teenager but lack of parental guidance and such - I did it and it resulted in being some of the most painful years of my life. If someone told me I was too young... if someone told me it was not worth it.. if they told me about the pain... years later and I am still left with scars from it.
There's this guy. I know him because of work. He's not a Christian, and he got a really rough start in life from his parents (if you can even call it a start.) I really, really want him to have the peace that only Jesus can give him.
This is not about potential missionary dating, so please, nobody try to talk me out of something I'd never even consider. But I seriously love this guy, and if anybody feels led to pray that he comes to know Jesus, I'd really appreciate that. His name is Mike.
OK, I've had a tough couple of days, when I tell you why it may sound pretty lame and by no means am I comparing my problem with anyone else's problems.
I am a food addict, people laugh at that sometimes, but it's a real thing. I am not a huge person, I'm overweight but I'm pretty active so that helps. I've had issues with food since I can remember. Always eating when I'm stressed, always eating when I'm lonely or bored. I have triggers foods that I have to avoid. It's hard food is everywhere. Things got really bad after I had my kids, I'd get up with a baby and eat to stay awake, when I had two toddlers a year apart, I'd eat to deal with the stress. When my Dad died, I ate.
I've been doing really well, I've noticed when I cut back on carbs it helps me not to be hungry all the time. These last coule days have been hard, not because of stress but because of hormonal things and the only thing I want to do is eat.
I wish I could lock up all the food or not buy it, like and alcoholic, but it's not possible. If I lived alone, I'd have probably 4 things in this house, but I don't.
I'm just praying I can get through a night without waking up and eating. My Husband snores, it wakes me, I can't sleep.
If someone can train a dog to not bark at night, do you think someone could be trained not to snore at night?
I don’t like the person I’ve become;
I don’t like what the sadness has done to me.
Thanks also for the recipe tip Monicat, but I can't make things like that, even with stevia, it would be something I would eat the whole pan of. I'm not kidding, I don't have those triggers with ice cream or cookies, or even brownies, but something with pumpkin would be gone in a day.
My neighbor came over to tell me that our dog barking at night is waking her up and I should make it stop.... better get my remote out and put the dog on mute.... silly me I should have known to do that before hand.
If someone can train a dog to not bark at night, do you think someone could be trained not to snore at night?
We live in a very wooded area....there's gonna be things run around in the woods therefore the dog is going to bark. The dog has lived here 5 years with no problems the neighbor's only been here about 8 months. Lol maybe I should mute the neighbor instead![]()
We moved the dog to another part of the yard...maybe that'll work. I was just aggravated because the woman starred off nice and I was nice in return but as she was leaving she decided to get an attitude. I was agreeing with her....sheesh what else did she want ? I told her it would be taken care of as soon as someone else was home to help me.
We live in a very wooded area....there's gonna be things run around in the woods therefore the dog is going to bark. The dog has lived here 5 years with no problems the neighbor's only been here about 8 months. Lol maybe I should mute the neighbor instead![]()
We moved the dog to another part of the yard...maybe that'll work. I was just aggravated because the woman starred off nice and I was nice in return but as she was leaving she decided to get an attitude. I was agreeing with her....sheesh what else did she want ? I told her it would be taken care of as soon as someone else was home to help me.
Maybe pumpkin bread? Probably not even such a thing but if there was I would eat all of it in an hour and not leave any crumbs on the plate. Now, crumbs on the floor is a different story but then dog would probably lap them up.
I hate being around toxic people!
This is my brain after dealing with a person that likes to take away Joy
"ughruiehujndsjkfsfhdsfjksdfhdskfjfhdskjfhskjfhdjksfhs"
And then it spreads.
And then...........................ughhhh.
Can I just die now? lol
I've got a quarter of a bag of frozen broccoli wrapped in paper towels and strapped to my wrist with electrical tape.
I can't imagine a more entertaining way to go about my day.