Dear Gemmy, please be patient with yourself, God never said that life will be easy but He did promise that He will go through it with us. Please know that you are in my prayers, I went through many trials as well and many times I cried to God for help and when I looked back, I can see how God has been good to me, He always gave me the strength to move forward. Please, take one day at a time, that's all you need to do. Just go through today and don't worry about tomorrow because God will be there for you and help you. May God bless you and grant you the peace that only He can give. Take care love and stay strong, I know you can do it! With God, there is nothing you cannot do.