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Levichevett
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Ok so my Mum has finally given my brother permission for him to take me to go see our Dad whos in jail so yea thats gonna be happening in the next few weeks. Im not entirely sure when. And hes getting out soon so if it goes well then hopefully he'll be able to be a part of our lives again. My Mums not too happy about it and my brothers a bit reluctuant towards it but like I was 5 when he went to jail and my brother was 10 so obviosuly I was a lot more sheltered from what was going on then they were. The only bad memory I have from back then was when my Dad was being arrested and the care home we were in for a while so for me my Dad was never a bad person and I dont want to move on without at least trying to get that relationship back with him. My mum said that he has tried to get in contact with me and my brother for years but shes never let him. But omg I so want this to work out and I am so scared that hes not going to like me it sort of was my fault hes there and I dont want him to hate me and Ive changed quite a lot since I was 5 so idk and I dont know how he'll react to me being gay and then it will break my heart if i go there just for him to reject me or if I dont like him but Im still gonna know because itll hurt even more if I dont try. Its like Ive been waiting nearly 10 years for this and now I have no idea whats going to happen if it works out or if it doesnt work out. Sorry I didnt really think this post through so it probably seems a bit rambled.