I constantly notice myself sinning throughout the day and I don’t want to displease God, I struggle with perfectionism and ocd if that helps you understand, so I try really hard to get it right which is draining. I’m aware of it all and also know I’m human so I know it is impossible to be without sin but also trying not to sin is draining. I will attach a photo of the list of sins I found.
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For the last month or so I have continuously researched so much related to Christianity and one being proof of Jesus rising from the dead, as Frank Turek says you can’t be 100% sure but the evidence points in favour. So I feel about 90% sure.
I feel drained, the more I watch videos ect the more I live in fear and paranoia. Some videos have titles “so many Christians are going to hell because of this” or titles along those lines. The videos say things like “even if the person was born again and kept sinning and didn’t repent they could go hell” and I don’t know what to believe because there is some things in the Bible that don’t directly answer my questions and I have sooo many. I know you must be born again, repent and also forgive everyone because if you don’t God won’t forgive you. Then I question that and think is resentment unforgivness?
Thank you