Psalms of Ceph

[Ceph]

1
Lord Jesus, I want to worship you.
Lord God,
give me strength in my soul.
I have grown extremely feeble.
My faith has dried up.
My councils are bitter, and evil,
and I have almost forgotten you.
I fail for understanding.
I lose control and don't attain peace.
I am destroyed internally.
Don't let it be to the end, Lord.

2
You are my peace, God.
In you, I prosper.
My heart has been wrong.
It will not be wrong.
You know all about me.
You change everything.
Yet, I am how I always was going to be.
What else can I say?
I will praise you, God.
There is no escape for me.

3
I sin, God, without conviction.
I sin and fall away.
I am far from holy.
Every day, I argue, and my past haunts me.
Every night, I am filled with lust.

From the beginning, you know me.
Before I was born, you drew me in.
Shall I cause myself to walk like this?

Yet when I try to escape evil,
I'm drawn back in.
Lust unsatisfied haunts me.
Consider my hope for good, Yahweh.
Don't let sin make an end of me.

4
I'm full of judgment, Yahweh.
Where did I go wrong?
Indeed, I have displeased your people.
It would be better if I had a millstone around my neck,
and I were thrown into the sea.

Please save, God, who I have condemned.
I know I have a wicked heart.
Bless them, God.
Bless them, if not me.

5
Yahweh,
save.
God almighty,
save.
Save them, great and small;
All who call on your name.
Save the little ones.
Save the needy.
Do it for me, Yahweh,
and I can accept my punishment.
In your holy name, Jesus,
bless them more exceedingly than I could ever perceive.

6
Lord God,
You heal me.
In your name, I am made strong.
The work is completed.
Who am I to judge myself?
You I still sense evil on my heart.
I still see peotential I may fall.

God, don't let me dispise you.
Heal my faith,
heal my soul.
Teach me to walk upright,
and I will be blameless before you,
and praise you at all times.

 

[Ceph]

7: A meditation.
Unbeleif is a bitter poisen.
Not just in lack of Gods existence,
or the promise of his covenants,
but of faith that you're among his people.

To myself, I was a weed,
a cannanite,
a soul made in vain.

But I could not be called without being among Israel.
I can not be a branch without being attatched to the trunk.
I deemed the fathers of old my ancestors,
and again the word was sweet to me.
I called the prophets my freinds,
and then I loved those who loved them.

Be among Gods people,
whether you are near or far off,
if you are surrounded, or all alone.

 

[Ceph]

8
Blessed are you, Yahweh,
who has called me from the womb to be your servant.
In the darkness of sin,
my heart failed.
In the heat of anguish,
I doubted my salvation.
I hated life itself.

Then I remembered your word,
"sanctify them in your truth",
and I looked within;
I remembered your testimonies.
Your word came to me in their times.
I made supplication for my sins.
I hated my soul for its evils,
and I yearned for you.

There is no other God besides you Yahweh.
If I can think otherwise,
It is still in your hand.
Guide my heart up to heaven, Lord,
Guide my soul to your house, dad.
Cause me to praise you in all things.
You did not forsake me,
for I have called on you.