You need to work out YOUR OWN salvation with fear and trembling.
Not mine! Your own!
Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in
my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work
out your salvation with fear and trembling." Philippians 2:12
Sounds to me that you don't really know if you are saved.
If you did? You would not be asking such a question.
For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me.
And this is the will of him who sent me, that I shall lose none of all those he has given me,
but raise them up at the last day. For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son
and believes in him shall have eternal life, and I will raise them up at the last day.” John 6:38-40
Jesus was saying that once you are saved.... even if you doubt your salvation?
He will lose none of all the Father gives to Him. None....
The Father is not going to give His beloved Son a believer whom later will be taken away from Him.
In Christ....