Good morning fellow brothers and sisters.
I hope you're all well
Here's my story:
I graduated 2024 my undergraduate degree and pursued a postgraduate degree last year until this year online. It was soooo hard and bad, I thought I was ready for it but it later felt like I wasn't supposed to be doing the postgraduate studies last year. Not only was the workload intensely high, I stay with my parents, dysfunctional household since my childhood. Both parents are ill and I'm helping then where I can.
Not only did I completed a undergraduate degree, but prior to that I went to college to complete a diploma as well. I tried applying for jobs everywhere I could and only landed one interview. Then last year whilst doing my postgraduate studies, I tried applying for jobs and again landed only one interview. I'm again now done with studies and feels hopeless because I must again apply for work and worry it will be the same. The place I want to go to (Police academy for training and employment) reached out to me last year September only to come and verify my documents and complete a psychometric assessment. I wasn't accepted because I was already enrolled at a university and will still be by the time they recruit us, so I wasn't contacted again.
I'm trying to do the same this year and maybe volunteer at a social crime base NPO for experience but I'm sooo discouraged after all my efforts I have put in, it gets tiresome to keep pushing when everyone else, even those with no education background, gets a job. Or even those enemies that hurt me got what they wanted.
I've completed high-school 2015. You can imagine for yourself how tiring this must be. I never gave up, and kept pushing but there comes a time where it feels like it is purposely done to take away my happiness.
My mother and father are both teachers. Yet, due to this ongoing patriarchal system this side he never supported my mother like he should ss rhe bible states men must. He alone was able to get everything he wanted and she was forced to become a housewife. I don't know WHY God never relieved her. She's now no more the same mother I use to know, she changed and even ran away to some facility for abused women once. Today, my father STILL abuse his power in the household and STILLL PRAY AND GET WHAT HE WANTS.
With the duration I've been struggling to land a job makes me worry that I'll end up in such situation too. I don't want to marry someone and then they start acting up, changing character only when married. I grew up seeing how my father changed character to a master psychological and economic abuser. I refuse to relive my childhood after all I've put in to build a better future for myself. I'm angry because it's soo unfair that everyone else expect me gets what they want and I who always stand up for what's right, try to live by God's instruction and word never get a push to improvement.
I began to feel like maybe I'm not praying right or doing something wrong. No I haven't lost my faith. The bible speak of faith a small as a mustard seed is good enough. I'm waiting on God to give me a breakthrough. My parents are getting very forceful and impatient with my slow progress and I'm under a lot of pressure. Pressure that is not my fault at all. I'm tired and exhaustively continuously waiting on the Lord to make a way when everyone else expect me gets more than they ask for, even those who continuously push me down and trample on me. It's soo unfair.
It's been yearsssssss of waiting. There comes a point when jt feels like I AM the problem and worthless, like everything is pointless if it keeps going on like this.
As you can see, I'm tired. Can you please help me pray for change and breakthrough. I even doubt I'll pass my postgraduate degree cause I was supporting my family last year, dad with cancer and mom. I was carrying weights I never asked for and kept giving to God snd yet still got no relief. I'm emotionally drained and very tired. Hope doesn't seem to come my way.
All I ask is
Pray for me.
I'm at that point where no motivational talks help. I do it everyday to keep going. It won't change a thing. I have my faith, it might be little but instead of turning to a satanic bible, as old times, I wait on God to be my rescuer. I trust he has plans, I just don't know what they are. I don't want all that I've done and been through all be in vain, yet to change and put me through MORE PAIN and WAITING beyond this year. It's unfair. I don't know anymore then. I've lost everything and have been having NOTHING for years now. I've given God everything of mine. I still seeks his face and cry to him. I'm tired and reach out to my brothers and sisters in Christ to pray for me because I can't be 29 years old and still wait for breakthrough. When will I get stability in life??? Will all efforts always be in vain or is my breakthrough on its way????
I hope you're all well
Here's my story:
I graduated 2024 my undergraduate degree and pursued a postgraduate degree last year until this year online. It was soooo hard and bad, I thought I was ready for it but it later felt like I wasn't supposed to be doing the postgraduate studies last year. Not only was the workload intensely high, I stay with my parents, dysfunctional household since my childhood. Both parents are ill and I'm helping then where I can.
Not only did I completed a undergraduate degree, but prior to that I went to college to complete a diploma as well. I tried applying for jobs everywhere I could and only landed one interview. Then last year whilst doing my postgraduate studies, I tried applying for jobs and again landed only one interview. I'm again now done with studies and feels hopeless because I must again apply for work and worry it will be the same. The place I want to go to (Police academy for training and employment) reached out to me last year September only to come and verify my documents and complete a psychometric assessment. I wasn't accepted because I was already enrolled at a university and will still be by the time they recruit us, so I wasn't contacted again.
I'm trying to do the same this year and maybe volunteer at a social crime base NPO for experience but I'm sooo discouraged after all my efforts I have put in, it gets tiresome to keep pushing when everyone else, even those with no education background, gets a job. Or even those enemies that hurt me got what they wanted.
I've completed high-school 2015. You can imagine for yourself how tiring this must be. I never gave up, and kept pushing but there comes a time where it feels like it is purposely done to take away my happiness.
My mother and father are both teachers. Yet, due to this ongoing patriarchal system this side he never supported my mother like he should ss rhe bible states men must. He alone was able to get everything he wanted and she was forced to become a housewife. I don't know WHY God never relieved her. She's now no more the same mother I use to know, she changed and even ran away to some facility for abused women once. Today, my father STILL abuse his power in the household and STILLL PRAY AND GET WHAT HE WANTS.
With the duration I've been struggling to land a job makes me worry that I'll end up in such situation too. I don't want to marry someone and then they start acting up, changing character only when married. I grew up seeing how my father changed character to a master psychological and economic abuser. I refuse to relive my childhood after all I've put in to build a better future for myself. I'm angry because it's soo unfair that everyone else expect me gets what they want and I who always stand up for what's right, try to live by God's instruction and word never get a push to improvement.
I began to feel like maybe I'm not praying right or doing something wrong. No I haven't lost my faith. The bible speak of faith a small as a mustard seed is good enough. I'm waiting on God to give me a breakthrough. My parents are getting very forceful and impatient with my slow progress and I'm under a lot of pressure. Pressure that is not my fault at all. I'm tired and exhaustively continuously waiting on the Lord to make a way when everyone else expect me gets more than they ask for, even those who continuously push me down and trample on me. It's soo unfair.
It's been yearsssssss of waiting. There comes a point when jt feels like I AM the problem and worthless, like everything is pointless if it keeps going on like this.
As you can see, I'm tired. Can you please help me pray for change and breakthrough. I even doubt I'll pass my postgraduate degree cause I was supporting my family last year, dad with cancer and mom. I was carrying weights I never asked for and kept giving to God snd yet still got no relief. I'm emotionally drained and very tired. Hope doesn't seem to come my way.
All I ask is
Pray for me.
I'm at that point where no motivational talks help. I do it everyday to keep going. It won't change a thing. I have my faith, it might be little but instead of turning to a satanic bible, as old times, I wait on God to be my rescuer. I trust he has plans, I just don't know what they are. I don't want all that I've done and been through all be in vain, yet to change and put me through MORE PAIN and WAITING beyond this year. It's unfair. I don't know anymore then. I've lost everything and have been having NOTHING for years now. I've given God everything of mine. I still seeks his face and cry to him. I'm tired and reach out to my brothers and sisters in Christ to pray for me because I can't be 29 years old and still wait for breakthrough. When will I get stability in life??? Will all efforts always be in vain or is my breakthrough on its way????
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I love him so much. My current will not forever stay this way because I know God has great plans.