Please pray for me, I don't want to die but I can't do this anymore

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Prin8431

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Ive been a heroin addict for 2 years and no one knows. Im alone as I have pushed everyone away. This has brought me closer to God like I've never been before but he still feels faraway. I feel like I can't take this anymore and I want to die to end my suffering but yet I still want to live. I don't have anything to make myself feel better and the wait list for treatment is long. Also the Er won't help me. I can't do this anymore please pray for me
 

Joy4N8cher

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Hi my dear Prin. Please know I am praying for you. I'm glad you found this site and hope you get the encouragement you need.
More than that, I hope you are able to get the help you need. This world is a better place with you in it. Please get help, even if it doesn't seem like it's helping, if that makes sense.
 

Bingo

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"Your words have been heard. I pray these words are also heard.
Make no mistake, we cannot go it alone when an addiction has a grip
on our life. I pray you find a program of recovering addicts, and truly
get involved, they can help, so long as you really want help. It will take
much more than online chat, but you may find good encouragement, and
you are welcome to seek advise and encouragement on the CRA thread, within
the miscellaneous forum, as it looks like you have been there. We are always
available, and hopefully you find what is needed in your life, and hopefully
God will be a part of your life. I pray you get your life on track, and find a
new beginning, you can do it!"
'Praise God'


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SoulWeaver

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I know very closely a person who used to be a drug addict. She told me that she looked at herself in the mirror and she cried out to God that she didn't want to do it anymore. She looked like a skeleton and was selling her body to afford the habit. She did not take it again. Lived as a Christian since. Later when dealer came to her door, she kicked him out and told him "I don't need that junk anymore". This isn't some story, I know the woman personally. You can be free. Please choose life. This choice isn't just about life here on earth, but also about your eternal life. Praying that you will do what she did in Jesus' name. Amen
 

PennEd

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Ive been a heroin addict for 2 years and no one knows. Im alone as I have pushed everyone away. This has brought me closer to God like I've never been before but he still feels faraway. I feel like I can't take this anymore and I want to die to end my suffering but yet I still want to live. I don't have anything to make myself feel better and the wait list for treatment is long. Also the Er won't help me. I can't do this anymore please pray for me
So terribly sorry for your pain sister. Please know you are extremely valuable and loved. By both your Heavenly Father, and your brothers and sisters in Christ.

Holy Father, please give Your daughter peace, and an unmistakable reality of Your Presence. Give her the realization that her flesh, the world, and the devil have no power over Your little girl.

In Jesus Name I pray.
 
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Will pray for you! Keep in mind that if you are a child of God, having repented and believed the Gospel, that your sin, and all of our sins can and will cause lack of assurance from God, and doubt.

He will chastise his children when they sin, Hebrews 12:8ff, yet it is designed to correct us for our own good and lead us to freedom, Luke 4:18.

Remember, He came to save us from our sins, Matthew 1:21 and this is one step in the direction of freedom from that in your life. When true believers are honest they all have a testimony of dark times, struggles with sin, and how God overcame that sin in them. Do not be surprised at how He deals with this, showing the evil of sin to us, convicting, commencing our struggle in Him to overcome, leading to true freedom.

Be in church, a solid Bible preaching church, be in the Bible, be in prayer, get pastoral help. If I can assist you in any other way, let me know.
 

Prycejosh1987

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Ive been a heroin addict for 2 years and no one knows. Im alone as I have pushed everyone away. This has brought me closer to God like I've never been before but he still feels faraway. I feel like I can't take this anymore and I want to die to end my suffering but yet I still want to live. I don't have anything to make myself feel better and the wait list for treatment is long. Also the Er won't help me. I can't do this anymore please pray for me
I dont think you want to die but have an end to your suffering. You have the power to end it, by taking actions and remaining in prayer. Heroin is hard to get, i have been offered it myself maybe 3 times. You must have taken heroin as a coping method. Deal with the reason why you turn to heroin and you will find more strength against it. Good luck, and i am praying for you.
 
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Dear sister, In Jesus name, I pray that you would be free from your addiction. God you know how much she wants to be free; but she needs help. I pray that someone would come into her life and provide the help and counseling that she needs for free. God do a miracle in Prin's life and draw her to You. Draw her to others who can walk through this with her. In Jesus name. Amen
 

Prin8431

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Oct 12, 2019
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Thank you all for your kind words and support. Feeling lost and alone. I tried to get help but what I got was that my insurance wont cover it all and I don't have any money. Im on the waiting list for the free treatment center but my wait time is a month. And still I pray
 

Joy4N8cher

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Prinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!! You have been lifted to the heavenlies, lady!! God put you on my heart on my drive into work a couple different times. We will keep praying that God sustains you and gives you so much strength, power to keep taking it one day at a time... and that He delivers you in a miraculous way. So glad you are on the waiting list.
 
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No waiting lists with God.
Full service freedom.
If your ready to die to your old life and live to God.
He is ready to give you a new one.
Turn the light on in your soul and fill you up with the joy of Him.
Jesus already paid your price bought your freedom from your slavery to your sin and new life.
Do not let it go to waste.
Take hold of it and make it your own.

"God bless you and keep you and cause His face to shine upon you and give you peace"