I will pray for you. I have been through a lot myself. From a failed marriage, loss of a child, abuse, then physical trauma and 59 surgeries. I live with both physical and emotional pain everyday wondering if I'm worth someone's love. At 40 yrs old I'm alone living with my parents and my only solitude is in Christ my Savior and my bible! Hope strong and let God take it all, give Him your burdens. The bible says so in Phillipans 4:6-7