It is my understanding that as a Christian I am to hate my life and myself in that I am a sinner and eternal life is what truly matters. I understand this is only a tiny part of my true life. But I just can’t seem to enjoy anything being so preoccupied with going to heaven. And I am very unhappy. God calls us to be joyful but how can I be joyful in this world? It is evil and ran by the devil. I don’t want to love the world but how am I to go on?
This is the saddest thing I ever heard!!! I have been saved for 30 years, Messiah gave me life and life more abundantly… especially because I was 18 when I got saved, now almost 50. Now I walked away from quite a bit of "life" this world had to off sex, since age 13, lots of drugs, bulimic, 2 suicide attempts, dropped out of school my freshman year, and a murdered husband (killed in Dec of the year I turned 18, in July). So when I got saved I was ready for any thing to change my life....
After the euphoria of being Saved wore I went back to being "part" of the world... now I was knocked up, not married (my son's dad and I split up when we found out I was pregnant), 21, no job, and now no home… went back to mommy and daddy....
I had a lot of "worldly" choices before me, but I knew enough not to MURDER MY BABY.... My so is autistic.... Father has nothing to do with him.... now 27 years old....
BECAUSE Y-SHUA/JESUS IS LIFE AND LIFE MORE ABOUNDENTLY.... I have graduated college, my son (today is mothers day) is my BLESSING FROM G-D and a GREAT MAN OF G-D!!! I honestly love people in the Lord and not out to get for myself, I enjoy fun the world has to offer that is not sin... I scuba, I "gamble fish"... do fishing tournaments for "monster" fish..., I travel with my son everywhere!! And most of all when my mom moved home to heaven, from cancer, I got to take care of her.... my dad now at 85, I take care of him and when we travel he goes with us.... most fun he has had in 20 years, because my mom had MS and the last 20 years were bad... G-d gives me enough income I can take care of people in need.... I have been able to be on mission trips with my church....
I LIVE!!! I'M IN THE WORLD, and I HOPE A BETTER PART OF IT... BUT I AM NOT OF IT LIKE THE SCRIPTURE SAYS!!!!!
BUT DO YOU WANT THE SECRET TO BENING IN THE WORD AND NOT A PERT OF IT AND YOU WILL HAVE THE GREATEST HIGH OF YOUR LIFE!?!.... WIN PEOPLE TO MESSIA!!!!
BE A SOUL WINNER.... sorry to say you must not be.... or YOU WOULD ENJOY LIFE!!!!! LET G-d USE YOU TO SAVE PEOPLE FROM A DEVLES HELL AND YOU WILL NEVER BE BOARD AGAIN!!! If He dies not, it does not sound like He does get close enough to Him, build your relationship... YOU WILL SEE MERICALS SO EXCITING YOU WILL NEVER HATE LIFE AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!