Ever since I heard about this sin that shall not be pardoned, I’ve had bad thoughts about it. Thoughts like what the scribes had said to Jesus. I didn’t believe any of it, but I’m scared that maybe this can be done in your mind. Can it? Some people say the unpardonable sin is the state of unbelief, some say the unpardonable sin like in the scribes’ situation is un duplicatable today, or some say the word “blasphemy” means to speak against so it’s not really blasphemy because it’s in your mind. I know what the unpardonable sin is like in the scribes’ situation but all these things I mentioned confuses me. I’m also scared that maybe I did do it because (I know this sounds ridiculous) but my friend and I, were joking about squashes (the vegetable) and I called it “pure evil” out loud. Of course, I don’t really believe squashes were evil, it was just a joke. Would that be it since that’s legitimately attributing God’s creation to evil? I constantly battle with myself in my mind, I hear myself in my mind: “NO he’s GOOD!” If something against God would pop up in my mind. I constantly have myself thinking about it. I have prayed to God that he would take all this anxiety and fear about this away, and I seem to worry about it less. It’s either that or I have hardened my heart to not worry about it. I don’t believe I’m in spiritual battle? And I do not have OCD, at least I haven’t been diagnosed with it. Have I just jeopardized my salvation and last chance to be saved? Can someone please help me?