Hello

[Spiritwalker]

Hello.

I come to you today
in truth, and yet in total shame.

I have been feeling disconnected and adrift from some of my family recently and I need some godly counsel.

First, Let me start by saying,
I’m unmarried.
Condemn me if you will..I don’t care but I need your godly counsel anyway…
So, I have 2 children from a previous relationship
I left my partner because I never felt in love with him. It was never strong. He never made me feel loved.

Yet I see their father is a good father. He has sent our son into the forces, I see that he is doing so well.. . And my daughter is also doing well the civil service. I still see she is doing well.
it’s all down to my ex. He did them service. I could not at the time, see him like this. I feel ashamed. Why I did not love him
I feel ashamed.
I was not a good parent and now they have cut me off.
I fully understand. I just want to reach out to anyone who has ever felt disgraced and realised
there is still our
oh gosh

 

[Spiritwalker]

Don’t post this yet I hmmm

 

[tourist]

Don’t post this yet I hmmm

Too late. Don't be so hard on yourself. There is nothing about you that merits condemnation. You should feel no shame.

 

[seoulsearch]

Hello.

I come to you today
in truth, and yet in total shame.

I have been feeling disconnected and adrift from some of my family recently and I need some godly counsel.

First, Let me start by saying,
I’m unmarried.
Condemn me if you will..I don’t care but I need your godly counsel anyway…
So, I have 2 children from a previous relationship
I left my partner because I never felt in love with him. It was never strong. He never made me feel loved.

Yet I see their father is a good father. He has sent our son into the forces, I see that he is doing so well.. . And my daughter is also doing well the civil service. I still see she is doing well.
it’s all down to my ex. He did them service. I could not at the time, see him like this. I feel ashamed. Why I did not love him
I feel ashamed.
I was not a good parent and now they have cut me off.
I fully understand. I just want to reach out to anyone who has ever felt disgraced and realised
there is still our
oh gosh

Hi @Spiritwalker,

I'm very sorry you are having these struggles.

I can't help but think of my own biological mother, whoever she might be -- I don't know what the circumstances were that caused me to be given up for adoption, but I have always hoped that whatever she went through or did, people would speak to her with God's love and compassion.

Who would I be to judge your situation?

We all have regrets, and things we would have done very differently. We all wish we could go back and fix things, or that we could even magically fix things in the present.

I'm sorry in that I'm not fully understand what you are asking.

What can we help with?

How can we pray with and for you?

How way me be of service as your fellow people in Christ?

 

[Suze]

U could not have been a worse mum than mine . In mitigation she couldn't really b anything other than , as she is a diagnosed psychopath .
As long as your children and ex r alive , then u have the chance to talk to them , maybe not right now but , in the future , that chance will come .
To a certain extent , we cannot help who we do and do not love . If it's there then it's there no matter what , if it isn't , then it cannot b manufactured . Please don't beat yourself up , hindsight can b a torturous thing and u shouldn't torture yourself for who u used to b and all the things that u didn't realise and couldn't see and couldn't cope with then . We r all works in progress , every one of us .
I have hurt people in the past , I've done the wrong thing , said the wrong thing , not recognised or taken into account , other people's feelings . At 58 I still make mistakes and I hate myself every day for all of my cruelty , stupidity and lack of awareness . I have a feeling that my mistakes will continue right up to my last breath . Wait for your chance , or , if u can't wait , then manufacture it . Speak to whichever one of them u think might b the most understanding towards u , probably your ex . Acknowledge your failings and sincerely apologise and c how that goes down . Once one door has been opened then maybe the others will follow . U may have to wait while for the right time , while u r waiting , cheer up ! God loves u , Jesus loves u , they always did and always will . They know who u will become , they c the finished product and they will b with u every step of the way . Get on with your life , build up your faith , build yourself a life and , when the time comes b ready to talk and to listen . As your children get older and they make a few mistakes of their own , they will b more understanding of the fact that u made some too . It's called being human . I hope u start to feel better about yourself soon .

 

[Gideon300]

Hello.

I come to you today
in truth, and yet in total shame.

I have been feeling disconnected and adrift from some of my family recently and I need some godly counsel.

First, Let me start by saying,
I’m unmarried.
Condemn me if you will..I don’t care but I need your godly counsel anyway…
So, I have 2 children from a previous relationship
I left my partner because I never felt in love with him. It was never strong. He never made me feel loved.

Yet I see their father is a good father. He has sent our son into the forces, I see that he is doing so well.. . And my daughter is also doing well the civil service. I still see she is doing well.
it’s all down to my ex. He did them service. I could not at the time, see him like this. I feel ashamed. Why I did not love him
I feel ashamed.
I was not a good parent and now they have cut me off.
I fully understand. I just want to reach out to anyone who has ever felt disgraced and realised
there is still our
oh gosh

Welcome. Religious people dragged a woman caught in the act of adultery before Jesus. He said, "Let the one without sin cast the first stone." No one here is without sin. They'd better not start throwing stones.

God knows everything about you and loves you anyway. The past cannot be changed, but God can give you a great future. Jesus died and rose again to pay the price of all your sins, failures and defeats. Put your trust in Him and allow Him to put your life back together - the right way this time. We will help you all that we can.

 

[Tall_Timbers]

Praying for Spiritwalker

 

[GRACE_ambassador]

I come to you today
in truth, and yet in total shame.

I have been feeling disconnected and adrift from some of my family recently and I need some godly counsel.

Precious friend @Spiritwalker, I will pray for you:

Please Be Very Richly Encouraged And Edified
In Christ, and In His Precious Word Of Truth:

God's Grace Word for our infirmities!

Amen.