I get nothing but condemnation and dread when I think about Jesus.
Yes, because you have not come to and have not seen the cross where the Lord Jesus Christ took your punishment.
God loves us. He knows we are weak and sinful.
Gods enemy came and deceived us.
We must realise that Satan is actually a defeated enemy, because Jesus was obedient unto death.
It can be quite difficult for us when we don’t have true Christians who are leading by example.
But God is always there, waiting. As He said, the Kingdom of God is
at hand
(We stay in misery while we keep looking at our circumstances.)
Philippians 2:8 KJV
And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.
Hebrews 2:14 KJV
Forasmuch then as the children are partakers of flesh and blood, he also himself likewise took part of the same; that
through death he might destroy him that had the power of death, that is, the devil;