Welcome Mylrei. Great place to come if you are not sure about your spiritual status. Many today wonder if one can be sure. I just want you to know for sure that a person can be sure. That assurance is a part of the gift package that God wants to give every man, woman, and child that ever was, is, or ever will be. All you have to do is surrender totally to the love and lordship of Jesus. Go ahead and count the cost of doing this, but also count the cost of not doing it. God bless you with the knowledge to make the right choice, but I beg you to do it soon. If you have a Bible, the third chapter of John sums it up pretty well. My favorite verse is Revelation 3:20. Hope to see you in Heaven, my friend.
John 3
3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
3:17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
3:18 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
3:19 And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.
3:20 For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved.
3:21 But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.
Revelation 3
3:18 I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; and white raiment, that thou mayest be clothed, and [that] the shame of thy nakedness do not appear; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see.
3:19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.
3:20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.