Hi everyone
I have just joined as I have been practicing Christianity for about the last 6 months after a personal crisis. I lost my father in 2020, which resulted in a series of extremely unfortunate events.... Breakdown of my relationship, arguments with family, selling family home, wasting my inheritance money, being homeless, involvement with police and mental hospital, health deterioration and debt. I'm slowly recovering as I turn to Jesus and get more involved with the church and scripture, but can't believe how much has happened in the space of just 1 year.
After losing my father I took out credit cards and got into debt for investing crypto, which was advertised as a way to get rich quick at the time. I was obsessed with making money fast, and even pushed my mum to sell our home so I could get more money, something which I will always regret as our house was the last stable thing in my life. The devil was absolutely manipulating me at the time as I would have had such a better life by now if this hadn't happened. I was also involved in an online cult called Energetic Synthesis and would listen to hypnosis and meditations every day which brainwashed me. I fell for tons of new age rubbish and had tons of crystals, candles, cards, books, material items that idolised and worshipped anything but God. I also kept binge spending money on all sorts and got into more debt with the new age belief that money is just energy and an illusion. Lol. Looking back all I needed was friends, exercise, family and home. But unfortunately I isolated myself on the Internet and was addicted to conspiracy theories, went too far down the rabbit hole and ended up losing nearly everything. I was also a sloth and hardly worked, never cleaned up, my poor mother did everything for me.
Once my mum downsized I was unable to live with her and my brother, so lived with my then partner and felt isolated in the area. Despite trying to reach out to people and joining the church nothing could lift my depression. I had also been into 'natural health' despite the fact I was physically healthy, and would go to a detox clinic regularly for colonics. Then one day I went to the clinic for an IV treatment, something I'd never done before. It hurt and I remember coming out feeling unusual, but nothing too strong. Then that night I couldn't sleep, then the next, etc. Until I had gone without sleep for an entire month. I visited the ER multiple times as my blood was constantly pulsing fast and I was terrified what was going on. I couldn't sleep no matter what I did and my health was deteriorating. I was then admitted to a mental hospital which was horrible, for 2 weeks. I took some tablets there but nothing resolved the sleep. After I came out I couldn't stay put in one place and kept driving aimlessly between my partners and mums in a state of panic because even when I tried to sleep I would be laying there in torture, unable to process the trauma. Only now I am managing to get some sleep but my quality of life is so poor. I am living with my partner most of the time and did try to get my own place. But all I miss is the old family home, I can't believe how much has changed since leaving there. I had a high IQ, promising career and a masters degree before all this. Now I can't even remember what I did last week as my memory is failing. I'm only 30 but have more halth problems than most due to the injury from the clinic.
This experience has truly humbled me. I believed the new age propaganda and detox protocols and in search for wealth and health I ended up getting sick and broke. The irony is that I was already wealthy and healthy in the family home and never needed anything other than God. I kept sinning and rejecting the commandments and wonder why the devil took control over my life. I will never make those mistakes again.
I have just joined as I have been practicing Christianity for about the last 6 months after a personal crisis. I lost my father in 2020, which resulted in a series of extremely unfortunate events.... Breakdown of my relationship, arguments with family, selling family home, wasting my inheritance money, being homeless, involvement with police and mental hospital, health deterioration and debt. I'm slowly recovering as I turn to Jesus and get more involved with the church and scripture, but can't believe how much has happened in the space of just 1 year.
After losing my father I took out credit cards and got into debt for investing crypto, which was advertised as a way to get rich quick at the time. I was obsessed with making money fast, and even pushed my mum to sell our home so I could get more money, something which I will always regret as our house was the last stable thing in my life. The devil was absolutely manipulating me at the time as I would have had such a better life by now if this hadn't happened. I was also involved in an online cult called Energetic Synthesis and would listen to hypnosis and meditations every day which brainwashed me. I fell for tons of new age rubbish and had tons of crystals, candles, cards, books, material items that idolised and worshipped anything but God. I also kept binge spending money on all sorts and got into more debt with the new age belief that money is just energy and an illusion. Lol. Looking back all I needed was friends, exercise, family and home. But unfortunately I isolated myself on the Internet and was addicted to conspiracy theories, went too far down the rabbit hole and ended up losing nearly everything. I was also a sloth and hardly worked, never cleaned up, my poor mother did everything for me.
Once my mum downsized I was unable to live with her and my brother, so lived with my then partner and felt isolated in the area. Despite trying to reach out to people and joining the church nothing could lift my depression. I had also been into 'natural health' despite the fact I was physically healthy, and would go to a detox clinic regularly for colonics. Then one day I went to the clinic for an IV treatment, something I'd never done before. It hurt and I remember coming out feeling unusual, but nothing too strong. Then that night I couldn't sleep, then the next, etc. Until I had gone without sleep for an entire month. I visited the ER multiple times as my blood was constantly pulsing fast and I was terrified what was going on. I couldn't sleep no matter what I did and my health was deteriorating. I was then admitted to a mental hospital which was horrible, for 2 weeks. I took some tablets there but nothing resolved the sleep. After I came out I couldn't stay put in one place and kept driving aimlessly between my partners and mums in a state of panic because even when I tried to sleep I would be laying there in torture, unable to process the trauma. Only now I am managing to get some sleep but my quality of life is so poor. I am living with my partner most of the time and did try to get my own place. But all I miss is the old family home, I can't believe how much has changed since leaving there. I had a high IQ, promising career and a masters degree before all this. Now I can't even remember what I did last week as my memory is failing. I'm only 30 but have more halth problems than most due to the injury from the clinic.
This experience has truly humbled me. I believed the new age propaganda and detox protocols and in search for wealth and health I ended up getting sick and broke. The irony is that I was already wealthy and healthy in the family home and never needed anything other than God. I kept sinning and rejecting the commandments and wonder why the devil took control over my life. I will never make those mistakes again.
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