Hi there!
I am facing a massive dilemma in my life right now, I do music production for a living, I always worked with secular artists, even with some that would probably not deserved my services, you know, bad lyrics, bad singing... etc... I feel like Im being a total music biz mercenary all my life but right now Im having this big call telling me to go away from all those artists and start over focusing only in Gospel/Christian or at least positive music, I dont want to work with artists that have violent or dark lyrics, bad intentions, dont really value music, etc... the problem is that I already got clients that are not Christians but they are good people so I dont really know what to do, for the past 2 weeks I actually closed my old email and social media and totally started fresh with the idea of spending some time away from music prod and focus on health my heart first and then come back to biz with a clear mind and better heart but some of my regular clients started asking for my services this week and I dont really know what to do, some days I feel like telling them that Im taking a break so forget about me for a while and some other days I think its always a blessing to have work to do, even if they dont pay much or not what I think is fair, which is another dilemma too, sometimes I feel like Ive being used and sometimes I feel like is my call to help all these upcoming artists with their songs... hope Im making sense so far. The truth is that Im in the worst period of my life, my dad has cancer, I never had a good relationship with him but I decided to move back to my hometown to live with him now but I got no couple, no friends, no social life here so its being really tough...
What do you guys think about it? any advice or help would be welcome, cheers.
I am facing a massive dilemma in my life right now, I do music production for a living, I always worked with secular artists, even with some that would probably not deserved my services, you know, bad lyrics, bad singing... etc... I feel like Im being a total music biz mercenary all my life but right now Im having this big call telling me to go away from all those artists and start over focusing only in Gospel/Christian or at least positive music, I dont want to work with artists that have violent or dark lyrics, bad intentions, dont really value music, etc... the problem is that I already got clients that are not Christians but they are good people so I dont really know what to do, for the past 2 weeks I actually closed my old email and social media and totally started fresh with the idea of spending some time away from music prod and focus on health my heart first and then come back to biz with a clear mind and better heart but some of my regular clients started asking for my services this week and I dont really know what to do, some days I feel like telling them that Im taking a break so forget about me for a while and some other days I think its always a blessing to have work to do, even if they dont pay much or not what I think is fair, which is another dilemma too, sometimes I feel like Ive being used and sometimes I feel like is my call to help all these upcoming artists with their songs... hope Im making sense so far. The truth is that Im in the worst period of my life, my dad has cancer, I never had a good relationship with him but I decided to move back to my hometown to live with him now but I got no couple, no friends, no social life here so its being really tough...
What do you guys think about it? any advice or help would be welcome, cheers.