next year 2015 i'm planning to commit it (if you know what i mean)
i want to tell god to erase me
im having a hard time dealing with life
i don't have a job,a girlfriend (torpe ako),im ugly, etc.
i don't want to be tested, i don't want to be punished in hell
i don't want to be a part of god's plans or life experiment
i just want to tell god that why he created me?
i don't want to feel pain,emotional pain,depressed,sad,lonely,bitter,jealousy,despair and more
i feel all of that since i was just a kid until now
i know i have the right to tell this to god because i don't ask to be created, i didn't ask for life, i don't want life.
Naku...parang hindi ko na kayang manahimik at manuod nalang. Sa totoo lang matagal ko nang alam yung concern mo dahil sa iyong first post. Noong nabasa ko yon....pinag-pray ko talaga ikaw kahit hindi naman kita kakilala. habang parating na tayo sa 2015...parang kinakabahan ako... kasi baka gagawin mo iyon. Naku boy....HUWAG !!!! Mas malala pa hahantungan mo dyan...sa impyerno talaga bagsak mo at forever pa. Ganun din ako dati I tried to end it all but God put fear in my heart kaya hindi maituloy ang aking mga balak...kasi Parang buhay na buhay ang impyerno sa isip ko habang naisip kong magpakamatay. Try seek God in yourself...kahit gaano ka na kabored in your life ituloy mo lang ang pag-seek sa kanya. Magpray ka in your own prayer...maging honest ka sa kanya...i-try mo lahat...pour out mo yong lahat na hinanakit mo sa Panginoon...Sabihin mo..Jesus pagod na pagod na ako ...ikaw na ang bahala sa buong buhay ko. Talagang makararating yan kay Jesus !!! magbasa ka rin ka ng Bible paminsan-minsan ...kahit gaano kaboring...ituloy mo lang...magbibigay ito sayo ng lakas na hindi mo man lang namamalayan...hanap ka rin ng sarili mong church....yong on fire church talaga na naniniwala sa trinity.
Cguroy kilala mo si Dr Hayden kho jr. Walang taong hindi nakakilala sa kanya dito sa philippine simula nang pumutok yong scandal. Alam mo bang " Born again" na siya ngayon....binago ang buhay niya ng Panginoon. 2 times siyang nagcommit ng suicide pero unsuccessful kasi nag-intervened si God kaya hindi siya natigok. Alam niyang imposibleng mabuhay siya nun. 30 pcs of valium at yong pangalawang suicide 30 pcs of ecstacy ....3 days lang siyang comatose pero nagising pa rin siya at walang man lang brain damage at kong anuman...kaya imposible talaga....kaya naisip ni hayden na may higher power talaga somewhere. atheist kasi siya. kaya simula nun nag-seek siya kay God hanggang sa matagpuan niya si Jesus ... Wala talagang imposible sa Panginoon. Basahin mo na lang buong testimony ni hayden sa site ng 700 club or cbnasia.org .....may video doon...si alex tinsay at mirriam quiambao ang nag-interview....ok God bless !!!
Domdom sayang ang buhay mo. Bakit di mo yan ialay kay God? Ayon pa sa kanta, " ang iyong pagdaramdam, idalangin mo sa Maykapal na sa puso mo ay mawala ng lubusan" God listens. If you end everything now, you will never know what the future may bring. God has great things in store for you. You were chosen by God to suffer for His Glory. It is an honor to be chosen. In the end He will lift you up. How can God display his Glory when you will not let Him by ending it all. Hindi tayo ang bida sa buhay na ito...si God ang bida kaya dapat ipaubaya mo na ang mga problema mo sa kanya. Wag mo nang problemahin. Magtiwala ka lang sa kanya. Utang na loob, please, maghunos dili ka. Magiging maayos din ang lahat. Kung nalulungkot ka, maging busy ka, mag exercise ka, tumulong ka sa kapwa, magvolunteer ka sa dswd or saan man na mga organisasyon para magkaroon ka ng purpose kahit ngayon lang. Subukan mo lang, cguro naman gagaan ang loob mo pag may natulungan kang ibang tao. Tigilan mo na ang sobrang pag iisip. Magbasa ka na lang ng Bible at manalangin sa lahat ng oras para tigilan ka na ni satan. Wag ka mawalan ng pag asa. Tandaan mo walang permanente, matatapos din ang paghihirap mo. Trust in the Lord....
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Hi! Let me help, my friend, to summarize.
Fire of Elijah wrote he cannot just kept quiet and watch about Domdom's plan of suicide until 2015 comes. FOE said he was nervous for Domdom and somehow relate his experience of trying to commit suicide. FOE stated just thinking of suicide felt like HELL was real for him. FOE tried many times but God put fear in him that had stopped of his attempt to harm himself. His advices were 1. Pour out all his emotions, being real to God that Domdom was very tired of living and submit his life to God. 2. Read the bible though for Dom was kinda boring and not knowing it will give a new strength. 3. Find a church nearby.
FOE shared about a popular male Doctor here in our country. Got involved in a scandal with a celebrity. Then Dr. Hayden committed as well a suicide that if you think of the method he used to get his life like ecstacy... etc. never one would thought could be alive. He got comatose and no brain damage. And that's what struck the Dr. about GOd's power and sovereignty. A miracle that only a higher power can do. As an atheist, he was not seeking then from a personal experience of possibility, now he is converted to christianity. a living testimony of the doctor was posted to 700 club.
Tinkerbell 725 wrote about Domdom life is such a waste for that attempt. That let his life be used by God. Kanta means song.... a song she shared to Domdom... ang iyong pagdaramdam, idalangin mo sa Maykapal. (Your grief, pray it all to God.)
Na sa puso mo, ay mawala ng lubusan (That in your heart, be taken away to the fullest). The song entitled May Bukas Pa means There Still Tomorrow. Bida means like the main actor/actress in our life. She stated that we are not the main character in our life or in the story, GOD is the ONE. That Domdom needs to surrender his life to God. THat let God hold his life, not him. Advices like get busy in life. Volunteer at non government organization to have a purpose in life fand to be of help to other people. She advised him to stop thinking a lot/worry a lot and divert his attention to reading bible, pray always for Satan not to bother him. DOn't lose hope. All are temporary and the hardship will end. ...
Well, that's all, my friend. I translated them the best as I can. I do appreciate all the hearts of the people here to help one another. I gave PM as well to Dom.
@ Domdom, just keep on reading, keeping in touch here in CC. No pressure, Domdom, even if you don't feel, or you feel numb or whatsoever. Even you wrote, you will think it over then again be overcome of nothingness. Just share anything, even nonsense, even it doesn't make sense. Stay open and connected here.
Will be praying always.
@jer2911 Tanx talaga !!!
paxensya kana sa katamaran ko LoL. Ok God bless...
i only have 1 month
and still brokenhearted