I was driving home today and I asked God to speak to me. I was listening to MercyMe and crying my eyes out. Then I looked up at the sun and saw a cloud. I couldn’t tell if it was a sheep or goat, but it resembled more of a goat. I researched this and saw what goat means in the Bible. I’m so upset. What am I doing wrong? How can I show God that I do love him and that I want to live my life for him?
During the worst years of my life God told me to look up.At first I couldn't see anything.He told me I needed faith.A christian woman was beside me because we were having a conversation about something spiritual that just moments prior back at home', and I ran out the door feeling like no matter what was happening to me, it didn't matter because God was in control.
She looked up and got all excited and said she can see a dove.(a cloud shaped like a dove)
I keep looking and finally saw it.
To be quite honest, it didn't impress me as it did her.I didn't even believe in God back then.He would reveal himself time and time again.Then take that moment away from memory till giving them back in my mid 30s.Even then,it took me a few more years to submit to him.
Jesus called me a dog and also said I stink on a few occasion's because of my disobedience.It hurt,but it was the truth.