i am happy for you <3
i tried to be happy in the others. i always studied and followed the Pastors leading. was in Groups and did things for the Community. but i felt trapped and was not able to Worship God in freedom when in those Church settings. one time i just felt like i read about king David, who stripped down and danced as the Ark of the Covenant was approaching. they almost tackled me like i was possessed. but i looked at them and said, i see the presence of God in Worship is not welcomed here. i Rebuked them and walked out.
years later, several of those same people started going to Church where i was attending. they were suffocating as well. but that is Spiritual Growth. we cannot live on Milk forever.