Hello everyone. I want to become born again.
I'm 51 years old, have had many more downs than ups, but I'm finding that the downs were largely my fault...anger, lust, insecurity, fear...you name it. I don't think I can change on my own, but change I must. I guess I'm just afraid of having to actually walk the walk, because I come from a basically secular family...and I'm from the Northeast, where people of faith are becoming fewer and fewer, and mocking faith is mainstream.
Plus, I really don't know how to be a Christian. I don't pray very well. From me it sounds forced. And then, do I lose a large part of my personality, which is crabby and somewhat cynical?
But maybe I'm finally coming to understand that my relationship with God is the ultimate understanding of reality, and that the reason my previous attempts to become born again kind of flopped is because I always hedged my bets and never gave it even close to my all.
But I feel empty, and I know who's calling my name...so now what?
I'm 51 years old, have had many more downs than ups, but I'm finding that the downs were largely my fault...anger, lust, insecurity, fear...you name it. I don't think I can change on my own, but change I must. I guess I'm just afraid of having to actually walk the walk, because I come from a basically secular family...and I'm from the Northeast, where people of faith are becoming fewer and fewer, and mocking faith is mainstream.
Plus, I really don't know how to be a Christian. I don't pray very well. From me it sounds forced. And then, do I lose a large part of my personality, which is crabby and somewhat cynical?
But maybe I'm finally coming to understand that my relationship with God is the ultimate understanding of reality, and that the reason my previous attempts to become born again kind of flopped is because I always hedged my bets and never gave it even close to my all.
But I feel empty, and I know who's calling my name...so now what?
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