Are most of these attractions online?
Not that it can't happen in real life, of course. What is the emotional and mental state of the women you attract? I've found that a lot of women drawn to these beliefs often have abusive/troubled backgrounds and are pulled into these sects because of the feeling of empowerment it gives them. It makes them feel like they have some sort of power or control and can prevent being hurt, protect themselves and their loved ones, and/or seek revenge.
When online chatting was brand-new, I had a conversation I'll never forget with a woman who identified as someone of high ranking within the Wiccan system. Her family had been strict Catholics, and when she tried to go to them for help because her grandfather started sexually abusing her starting when she was 5, and they told her she must somehow be "tempting" him, because he was a "good man" and would surely never do something like this on her own.
Nothing was done to stop him and she was handed all the blame. She said the the reason she became a Wiccan is because it allowed her, as a woman (in her own reasoning,) to feel empowered and to never allow herself to be abused like that again.
I used to follow another woman on YouTube who said she was part of the Wiccan belief system because her father too had been extremely abusive, and she used Wiccan spells to "bind his power" and keep him away from her, her husband, and their kids.
If a common vein between most of these women is emotional pain and/or abusive backgrounds, I can see why they would flock to you, especially online. Many people out there will throw themselves headfirst at any scrap of compassion or willingness to listen because they've never been granted that before, and/or because they've come to rely on attention as their primary coping mechanism.
I'm about a plain as a sheet of school paper, but throughout my life, I've attracted a lot of party boys, and now, party men. My ears are only pierced once, I have no tattoos, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I've never tried drugs, and I don't go to parties. But guys like this see something in me that they hope will save them. I remember one guy at work asking me if he called me from a party because he was plastered, would I pick him up (I never gave anyone my phone number there except my boss,) and when I said no, he asked why not.
He said that with as compassionate as I seemed to others, wouldn't I want to help save him?
Believe me, I've been there, done that, and have all the scars to prove it. But this too is often what I attract. People who see something in the way I am that they either sincerely think will change them for the better, or that they want to exploit because they want to keep one and a half feet firmly planted in their own world, but also want to believe that someone will love them enough to put up with their antics while repeatedly rescuing them from their own terrible choices.
I know Christians will say, "It's the light of Christ that attracts these people," and I'm sure that's what these women see in you as well.
But as you have expressed several times here on the forum, almost all in these belief systems are drawn to it only because they want to use the good in you for their own purposes. Most have no interest in doing the hard work or going through the genuine pain it will take to truly change.
I was a doormat for a lot of people for many years, until a good friend of mine told me, "Most people want attention, not true healing."
I am much more selective now about who I let in and who I get close to, and it's made a world of difference, though admittedly, has shrank the number of people I talk to regularly to down to a few, and only those who, unfortunately, live across the country.
However, it's been well worth it, and I hope you'll be able to discern, cut off, and only keep the people around whom God wants to be in your life, too.
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