Everybody saw the mask you put on, how you acted in public. They didn’t know what went on behind closed doors, had no idea you’re drinking had gotten bad again. You needing a drink almost every night, I’d seen enough tv shows in my life to know what would happen.
But now that’s all in the past, soon what we had will be nothing but a memory however it’ll be one I won’t want to be reminded of daily. Every time I try to sleep I’m haunted by the things you’d do whenever you’d get mad, I feel so lost.
Every move you’d make would scare me, I had a feeling that even though you said you’d never hit me that the next time it would have been me instead of a cabinet or mirror or stereo. You’d lie, say you’d hit a tree or whatever but I’d always have tell the truth.
Lies upon lies making me walk on eggshells when it came to certain topics, controlling the time frame for everything we did together. Limiting my spending just so you could by truck parts chew and bait, then ignoring the fact I’d practically starve myself so you could eat.
My frustration would irritate you, you’d just yell and treat me like I was a child. I’m a grown woman but you saw a child because of my mental disabilities, I’d feel so small as small as an ant on the bottom of your boot. Harsh words, telling me to grow up when you had a whole lot of room to talk.
By, Danielle Barr
4/17/2024
But now that’s all in the past, soon what we had will be nothing but a memory however it’ll be one I won’t want to be reminded of daily. Every time I try to sleep I’m haunted by the things you’d do whenever you’d get mad, I feel so lost.
Every move you’d make would scare me, I had a feeling that even though you said you’d never hit me that the next time it would have been me instead of a cabinet or mirror or stereo. You’d lie, say you’d hit a tree or whatever but I’d always have tell the truth.
Lies upon lies making me walk on eggshells when it came to certain topics, controlling the time frame for everything we did together. Limiting my spending just so you could by truck parts chew and bait, then ignoring the fact I’d practically starve myself so you could eat.
My frustration would irritate you, you’d just yell and treat me like I was a child. I’m a grown woman but you saw a child because of my mental disabilities, I’d feel so small as small as an ant on the bottom of your boot. Harsh words, telling me to grow up when you had a whole lot of room to talk.
By, Danielle Barr
4/17/2024
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