Chronic worrying.

[blueluna5]

Okay, a little introduction about me and my mental health. Since the age 12, I had always had an obsessional worry that sometimes produces unwanted thoughts, mental images and feelings for example at the age 12 I had unwanted thoughts about God & Jesus to the point not wanted to pray, see images or go to church without triggering a disgusting thought. Then, later on, I start worrying about committing the unpardonable sins. (I still think about once in a while) somewhere either on mid-2014 or 2015 I overcame the unwanted thoughts and feelings relating to Jesus and god and then I developed a fear of being about a pedophile too the point I stop interacting or barely interacted with family members that had young children and hated going to areas that had children nearby even as far as not watching movies that contain children. Which in turn affected my social skills. I overcame the fear of being a pedophile in late 2017 along with few others. Now my anxiety is 10x times worse than before to point it's sometimes plain stupid like fear of food and yellow or worrying about having early onset Alzheimer's even tho I am 17 years old and many many more that come and goes even the fears I had overcome. As of now, I am highly hypervigilant of what I say, do think, behave, and my thought process and feelings. My main fear is being a sociopath but my obsessional fears go back and forth in a matter of minutes, hours or days.

So impure thoughts like you're mentioning come from demons. You're afraid what they are saying is true and so you're giving them power and the thoughts /dreams intensify.

The pedophile thought is because your a teen with hormones gone wild. You know that's a wrong direction to go, your afraid of it, and so you give it power. The impure thoughts preventing being near God are on the same lines. It's like saying "Don't think about.....whatever" you're naturally going to think about that. That is human behavior. So being anxious about your anxiety is actually making it worse.

Being a teen isn't easy. I once heard a young teen scream to her mom , "I'm so awkward!!" while in public. I thought she was just a pretty kid, did not appear awkward at all. Lol however unfortunately that's the norm and I was the same way.

I would do some serious meditation and praying. Meditate first so you can pray!! Focus on your breathing. The thoughts will come, let them pass. Don't try to "control" it. Let it be.. And continue to focus on your breathing. You can also do Christian meditation and breathe in and out the word of God. Remember the thoughts are not the sin, but rather believing the thoughts and not telling them no is. Even Jesus was tempted with Satan in his thoughts. But he used the word of God to dismiss it.

FYI I've had similar "thoughts" but I don't dwell on them and let them just pass, dismissing as silly, ridiculous, etc. We always have the power to say no to a sin. Demons enjoy messing with us. There's no need to fear though, trust in God instead.

 

[Nehemiah6]

My main fear is being a sociopath but my obsessional fears go back and forth in a matter of minutes, hours or days.

You have already identified your problem, which is FEAR. or more generally FEARFULNESS. And all worry is ultimately fear -- fear of the unknown.

But if you are child of God, you can say to yourself, and also sincerely believe: "I HAVE NOTHING TO FEAR". Why? Because perfect love -- God's perfect love -- casteth out fear.

There is not a single person who cannot overcome fear and fearfulness. So immerse yourself in the book of Psalms and believe that God Himself is your refuge and strength.

PSALM 46 (To the chief Musician for the sons of Korah, A Song upon Alamoth.)

1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

2 Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;

3 Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah.

4 There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High.

5 God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved: God shall help her, and that right early.

6 The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted.

7 The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

8Come, behold the works of the LORD, what desolations he hath made in the earth.

9 He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.

10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

11 The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

 

[David1404]

Kenneth Hagin Sr, who I referred to was known for healing, as Kathryn Kuhlman, Smith Wigglesworth, and countless others. Jesus went around healing, Mk 5:34 + everyone else, and said we (believers) would do greater things than him. There are so many Scriptures on healing and miracles that I perceive as literal but I certainly wouldn't force anyone else to.

 

[David1404]

Supernatural healing is very controversial because many Evangelicals misinterpret why God used healing and other supernatural signs and wonders during the ministry of Jesus and the establishment of his church.

 

[TabinRivCA]

Supernatural healing is very controversial because many Evangelicals misinterpret why God used healing and other supernatural signs and wonders during the ministry of Jesus and the establishment of his church.

'You shall lay hands on the sick and they shall recover'. I remember a woman who had pain in her shoulder for many years causing her not to sleep. Kathryn Kuhlman called her out and she was instantly healed. Her testimony was 'look at the dark circles under my eyes from not sleeping well but now the pain is gone'. Anything can be misused unfortunately.

 

[Prognostic]

Like Penn said. Dude stop telling God about how big the mountain is and start telling the mountain how big your God is!