That’s a noble goal you have, JF, thank you for it.
I used to be suicide most of my life, the closest I ever came to terminating myself, my 380 gal. Handgun jammed because hollow points didn’t do well in the gun, first round in the muzzle jammed, thank God. I took it to a Gun Store to have it unloaded the same day.
Once I was in a behavioral hospital for 9 days.