Major faith roadblock

Are these unanswered prayers for things God's word says it is God's will that you have them?

Jesus never refused to heal anyone in the gospels. Inventing instances where He did refuse, is an attempt to justify religion that has a form of godliness but denies its power. 1 Tim 3:5

It was an idiom. I'm not waiting for a check. I'm not dictating a solution and waiting for that solution. I have been waiting for a response to prayer for a very long time and coming to the conclusion that a response isn't coming. I am therefore trying to understand how that affects my understanding of God and my relationship with God. Is God refusing to respond or am I wrong to expect that a response is coming? How does the answer to these question affect my assumption that the bible is inerrant? Do I need to reassess?

I can well understand your questions. . I believe in God. I’ve read all the memos . I know my Bible and I too have so many prayers that I have framed in so many different ways , hoping to stumble across the holy grail of formulas .. but it just hasn’t “ worked “ .Its frustrating and it’s super hard to keep fighting the good fight and I suppose the enemy relishes that .
It’s a celestial battle between good and evil and if it is ? I refuse to allow the enemy to win
So. despite the crippling silence I’m pressing toward the throne and I’m waiting ..still. because what else is there. Where can we go ? If not forward hanging on for dear life ?

It was an idiom. I'm not waiting for a check. I'm not dictating a solution and waiting for that solution. I have been waiting for a response to prayer for a very long time and coming to the conclusion that a response isn't coming. I am therefore trying to understand how that affects my understanding of God and my relationship with God. Is God refusing to respond or am I wrong to expect that a response is coming? How does the answer to these question affect my assumption that the bible is inerrant? Do I need to reassess?

I can well understand your questions. . I believe in God. I’ve read all the memos . I know my Bible and I too have so many prayers that I have framed in so many different ways , hoping to stumble across the holy grail of formulas .. but it just hasn’t “ worked “ .Its frustrating and it’s super hard to keep fighting the good fight and I suppose the enemy relishes that .
It’s a celestial battle between good and evil and if it is ? I refuse to allow the enemy to win
So. despite the crippling silence I’m pressing toward the throne and I’m waiting ..still. because what else is there. Where can we go ? If not forward hanging on for dear life ?

We are only ever told to “ run with patience the race that is set before us “
God makes no mention of the finish line .. the emphasis is on movement faith grows as a natural by product .

I can well understand your questions. . I believe in God. I’ve read all the memos . I know my Bible and I too have so many prayers that I have framed in so many different ways , hoping to stumble across the holy grail of formulas .. but it just hasn’t “ worked “ .Its frustrating and it’s super hard to keep fighting the good fight and I suppose the enemy relishes that .
It’s a celestial battle between good and evil and if it is ? I refuse to allow the enemy to win
So. despite the crippling silence I’m pressing toward the throne and I’m waiting ..still. because what else is there. Where can we go ? If not forward hanging on for dear life ?

So, in short, he was baptised not by water but by the Spirit.

I believed in God before I knew what religion was and have considered myself a Christian, although reading but not Church going, for most of my life. Finally a church going Christian for years...but...

I am at a major faith roadblock.

I have been praying over some critical life issues for years. I won't go into the exact issues because that is irrelevant. The only answer or result to my prayer efforts has been nothing, silence, no change, no intuitions, no gut feelings or signs, just absolute nothingness.

This has shaken my faith. It is clear there is a creator. And possible I misunderstand scripture. For example, Christ talking about moving mountains may only be intended for the apostles in their mission to grow the church. Christs prayer example asks for daily bread, not help in life's big problems, or struggling with sin, or anything else.

However, it seems like there are many passages that promote the power of prayer. For example:

Philippians 4:6 - Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

Mark 11:24 - Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

Romans 8:26 - Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words.

Matthew 6:6 - But when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

I am painfully aware of all the "excuses" people make for God not answering prayers but honestly, I don't think an all powerful God should need people to make excuses for Him.

I see only a few possibilities here.

1. Regardless of what I may have thought, I am not one of His people and therefore not listened to, or cared about at all. I am merely a fish in this aquarium called earth. I exist for a while, then gone for ever. Temporarily animated dirt that only existed for a time to add a little more depth and background to His great narrative, and nothing more

2. The bible is not inerrant and is wrong. God exists, the bible is a good effort at understanding God, but it is fiction. Perhaps highly valuable fiction but fiction none the less.

3. Another that I loath to believe but seems plausible. People pop into existence by an automated process He created. With a few possible exceptions, He doesn't especially care much for some or even most of us. I am certainly not the only person who feels like I am standing in the bottom of a well shouting towards the little opening hoping someone will hear and throw down a rope but it never comes. It is rational to come to the conclusion that nobody is up there. Nobody hears your shouts. Nobody is there. It is contradictory to think God "wants" you to believe and pray to an absolute zero feedback loop. Especially when it contradicts scripture.

This got me thinking, when people pray for a child who is perishing from a fatal illness, does healing ever come? Ever? or is is 1 out a 1,000? 1 out of 10,000? This is a million times more important that my problems and inflicted on innocents. Children who are supposedly especially loved. If their prayers cannot be answered, what hope is there for any of my prayers to be answered? None.

When I close my eyes and in the quiet and darkness call to the Holy Spirit, listening intently, waiting for His spirit to draw near, I can detect nothing other that perhaps a feeling that I now question isn't just my imagination.

I miss my friend. My friend who I can reveal my deepest feelings to. My friend whom I have been speaking too all my life only to realize I have only been speaking to myself because I am the only one who is there.

Have you forgiven everyone for all they have done towards you in life?

And your issue, are you able to fix even a part of it by your own attempt?

1. Probably not. Can I remember everyone I might have a reason to forgive, definitely not. I try to conduct myself appropriately, even when I have a reason to be angry and I try to not hold animosity in my heart. I am perfect in this? I'm sure God could produce a lengthy list, but I can't. There are people I have issues with. For example; I do not like people who lead children to sin and I have no room for mercy for such people. They can ask God for forgiveness but that is between them and God. For myself, I see them as dangerous and should be be dealt with accordingly. I think that is a matter practicality, not hatred, and I see no reason to forgive them.

2. No, I cannot fix any of it, not even a little.

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Here is a great example, Jesus seems to be a little harsh with the woman when he actually walked all day to perform one miracle:
[Mat 15:24-28 KJV] 24 But he answered and said, I am not sent but unto the lost sheep of the house of Israel. 25 Then came she and worshipped him, saying, Lord, help me. 26 But he answered and said, It is not meet to take the children's bread, and to cast [it] to dogs. 27 And she said, Truth, Lord: yet the dogs eat of the crumbs which fall from their masters' table. 28 Then Jesus answered and said unto her, O woman, great [is] thy faith: be it unto thee even as thou wilt. And her daughter was made whole from that very hour.

Watch out for pride…. It is a stumbling block to our prayers.

When we pray, we need to understand that…

Sometimes it’s my prideful flesh in false humility that is praying… evidence of this is having a pity party or temper tantrum and being angry towards God for not answering when or how I want God to answer.

My prideful flesh will try to negotiate with God by reminding Him of all the good works I did and how God owes me and should answer my prayer.

If that doesn’t work, then my prideful flesh will try to manipulate God with threats of not believing in Him anymore, or harming myself in various ways.

If that doesn’t work, then I become so bitter, angry and hateful towards God that I seek revenge with a murderous heart and start cursing God and everyone and everything that is godly

This is what happened when Cain killed Able.

Best to humble ourselves when we begin to pray…

if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2Chr.7.14&version=NKJV

I am curious, have you been baptised for the remission of sins,
Not all baptisms are created equal. I don't know your specifics, That is why i am asking.
It makes a differnce. God the father can not look nor consort with sin. This going to cause a fire storm. if no repentance then no baptism for the remission of sin then no saved.
after recieving the Holy Ghost, God sees him self, for him it is like looking in the mirror. and for that reason you have his full attention when you call on him.
again i don't know your specifics, but that is where i would start my invegating,
You only need to be baptised once, but if not done right then it is not a real baptism.
Something to think about. any christian can baptise another person. But not all peoples that baptise are Christians. they are wolves in sheeps clothing.
I hope this helps.

I do not worry about it and my life seems good.

I do not bother God about some things.

I do not bother Him with showing me a vision, or a revelation to believe, and the Bible tells us all.

It seems like some people want a vision, or revelation, or something great from God to believe in the truth, or they need it to feel important which it seems like they are bratty children, and are demanding.

Like they want more than God required to give us at least while in the flesh.

Our salvation is based on faith which is the evidence of things not seen so we are limited to what is available to us concerning the spiritual realm.

Thomas felt the hole in the side of Jesus, and the nail prints, and knew He rose from the dead, and said my Lord, and my God.

Which Jesus said he believed because he seen, but blessed are the people who have not seen but believe.

People who say they seen Jesus did not for it would violate faith which we walk by faith not by sight, and it seems the same way to hear a voice from God that it would violate faith.

The disciples, and other people, and Paul did not need faith for they seen the risen Christ.

But everyone else needs faith.

What do you want that you act deprived of receiving from God.

Paul received a thorn in the flesh so he would not get arrogant which he asked 3 times if God would remove it and He said my grace is sufficient.

What do people want for it seems like they require so much but it is based on faith.

Oh woe is me for God is not working mightily in my life like Moses, or John the Baptist, or Paul.

Oh woe is me because God is not showing me revelations, and visions in great abundance, and showing me all the substance, and all the details of the kingdom.

It is strange the way some people act.

Oh God does not hear me, oh He does not hear my prayer, oh He does not love me, oh He does not care about me.

What do you want for it is based on faith, and why be demanding like God is supposed to jump for you because of your insecurities.

It is alright so stop worrying.

But just like kids can behave wrongly with their parents some people confessing Christ can do the same thing.

What do you want for that is the question.

Do you want God to appear before you and prove He loves you, and give you an abundance of visions, and revelations to show you that you are important, and is the truth.

Or are you going to go by what we are supposed to go by and that is faith.