Why can't I just read it myself I don't know , I feel I need support.
We all need support or help, and God has graciously provided us the same in the person of the Holy Ghost/Holy Spirit.
Please consider the following words of Jesus:
John 14:16
"And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever;"
John 14:26
"But the Comforter,
which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you."
John 15:26
"But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father,
even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me:"
John 16:7
"Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter
G3875 will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you."
In these verses, Jesus referred to "the Holy Ghost," or "the Spirit of truth," as "the Comforter." In the Greek, the word that was translated into English as "Comforter" is
paraklētos, and it means someone who is called to one's side in order to assist them.
https://www.blueletterbible.org/lexicon/g3875/kjv/tr/0-1/
In fact, other Bible translations translate
paraklētos into English as "advocate," "helper," or "counselor." Here is an example of what I am saying from the first verse that I cited in John 14:16.
https://biblehub.com/john/14-16.htm
The proper understanding of this word's actual meaning should greatly assist you in your quest for truth because God has not left you "comfortless," or without an "advocate," or without a "helper," or without a "counselor" in your quest for truth. In other words, God never intended for any of us to rely solely upon our own human intellects or our own memory retention skills where truth is concerned. Instead, he has always fully intended for us to rely upon the Holy Ghost or Holy Spirit, who, again, is called "the Spirit of truth" and "the Spirit of Christ" in scripture, to not only teach us all things, but also to bring all things back to our remembrances. Help is available, at your asking, and it is available through the Holy Spirit who dwells inside of you as a Christian.
Do you understand what I am saying?
If you do, then simply shift your focus away from your own human intellect to the intellect of the Holy Spirit, and you will be just fine. He is the one who inspired the writing of the scriptures, and he is the one who knows exactly what they mean, and he is available to you 24/7.
1 John 2:27
"But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, ye shall abide in him."
Just to be clear, I am not suggesting that none of us ever requires the help of human teachers, but I am most definitely suggesting to you that you need to filter everything that you hear through the Holy Spirit. Before you read your Bible, just pray for the Holy Spirit to lead you and guide you into all truth, and he will do just that.