need someone to help me find God
Sure, give us some personal stuff about where you start from, and what you went through that made you seek out such a forum as this. A baseline understanding for us to relate to and give personal suggestions, instead of vagueness. I am also new, and have not read the collection of books, so cannot help too much with scripture, only my feeling of being marked, and ready for salvation after reading up some more. Do you know the bible? Or want to learn together with someone who is also new? I am starting on Joel or amos tomorrow.
Also, if you are specific on where you are, and what made you change, and what you ponder, we can do it logically and go into specifics on the individual verses. Do some interpretations, that is fun and informative.Best of luck buddy, you are on the path, you seek, you shall find. Just seek some help carrying your cross for a while till you carry it on your own. Everything works out fine as long as you have faith. If you can, you should make a thread in the bible section about something you have a hard time making sense of, and the rest here tends to have very good answers.