Are there single Christian girls in Finland ?

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kinda

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I just checked and there are also even Finland Christian dating websites around.. so this means there must be single Finland Christian females around.🤷‍♀️
Someone else unfortunate bad experience doesn't mean you would suffer the same fate.
Plus praying for Gods continual guidance,wisdom and protection is more than enough reason to give it a try.
Maybe the fantasy of having someone feels much safer that making oneself vulnerable in real life to make changes..Once can control ones romantic fantasy to for every need..but real life cannot be controlled in the same way..
Yeah, but he thinks only cheaters are online.

There is more to this story I'm sure, but it doesn't really matter, his mind is already made up.
 

Encouragement

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Yeah, but he thinks only cheaters are online.

There is more to this story I'm sure, but it doesn't really matter, his mind is already made up.
yep with over 200 different interactions he ought to be at a place of feeling empowered and much more hopeful in terms of facing the uncomfortable truth of his true motives regarding wanting a partner..
..As they say you can take a horse up to the water...
...but you can't force it to drink..

..so the horse remains thirsty..🤦🏼‍♂️🤷‍♀️
 

Lanolin

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oh sorry. not kept up with it

If you just want a girl to fondle, go on tinder. Because the people on there want the same thing.
I dont know if its christian or not, or is in Finland.. You will have to do your own research.

Here its christian singles fellowship and conversation not touchy touchy feely.
 

Kauko

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Thank you all for your posts. Thank you all for having been friendly. I know you have ended up tired of my coldness. I often lack empathy for others and undervalue all the things I have. Im a really dark person. Sometimes Im even disrespectful with others. I hate much more things than I love. Im just furious and bad tempered all the time. Little things can make me happy. I sometimes feel like I want to kill everybody. And sometimes even myself. Im very hateful and cynical. I lack empathy. I treat everybody in a rejectful way. I treat my own family as strangers. I like nobody in this world. Im a jerk. And I dont know how to change this !

I think part of this bad temper comes from my social rejection. I have been the strange of my classroom since childhood. I was really bad in learning and grew up very slowly. I learned to do everything much later than the rest of children. Especially in maths. I would take a long time in adding and subtracting as late as a teen. I never felt skilled in anything. They would often mock me and make me cry. I had not anything special. I was useless waste. And with years this didnt get much better. I still was a very immature boy. My performance was terrible in all areas. And I was really aggressive. I liked destroying things. I liked upsetting everybody, even the teachers. I was pretty much the worst classmate the school could ever have had. I started to be a real jerk. Until true bullies appeared and my life got ruined. I once left school hospitalized after a bad fight I had. They hit me with a chair in the head, making me a big injury in the area above my ear still visible today. I had to sleep in a certain way because entering into contact with the pillow in my injured area made me scream of pain. I changed school with a different attitude. I became the shy, reserved phantom with lots of fears. I never wanted to talk with anybody, even with those who treated me well. I assumed everybody there was a stranger and a potential threat. Some people even noticed the injury in my head. But in the deep, I was still a jerk. I only transformed from a wild jerk to a quiet jerk. As such, I started seeking ways to hurt and rebel against my around in a less blatant way. This is how I resorted to Christianity. It would be my perfect tool to feed my own ego for a time. Everytime I was looking at my classroom, I often thought "everybody will burn in hell and I will go to heaven" and smiled. Soon I assumed it as a part of my identity. I filled my notebook with "Jesus is with me!" drawings in a selfish way, and continued behaving like this for years. I didnt really convert until I was about 19. Beginning in my late teens I got interested in Christianity as a way of life and started to read and learn about it in my free time. I viewed it as the solution to all my problems. So I realized I had to become a better person. I tried to be less selfish and more kind to people. They noticed my change, but I still had no friends or attention. I still feared the society and had feelings of disgust towards my around. They looked too sinful for me. And I feared everybody wanted to lead me to sin. So nothing had changed in my life. Not to say my faith was really weak. Christianity was still a mere part of my identity rather than my way of life. And this never changed.

The conclusion is, I may have changed in my outside for the better, but not in my inside. I have always been the same person in my inside. The problem is that I dont feel I can change this. At least not myself. Maybe this is in my blood. I cant fix myself. I have been feeling this for a couple of years already. And this self-questioning has only resulted in depression, low self-esteem and existential problems. I finally learned I cant change myself. But I cant live this way anymore. Im killing my own soul. Im breaking out my own apocalypse.

And this is when I started to think I needed somebody else to change this. So the idea of a girlfriend popped out. I suddenly burst of passion. A potential girlfriend started to become an obsession. I hoped this girlfriend would bring brightness and colour to my dark, achromatic life. I hoped this girlfriend would make me feel better with myself. I hoped this girlfriend would calm my stress with her beauty. I hoped this girlfriend would turn my negativity into positivity. Even if my darkness tried to resist her, I hoped my heart would die of love and get infected with her joy and enthusiasm. It would be a great pleasure, everytime I say myself "Im trash !", to have a precious girlfriend telling me "No you are wrong, you are wonderful !" while smiling and massaging my hand. Oww this would be so charming ! You have asked me what if this girl is sold out for Jesus ? This is exactly what I want. A wonderful Jesus crazy girlfriend who loves to pray, read the Bible and share her faith with me. A girlfriend who talks through her behaviour. A girlfriend who never forgets about her cross. A girlfriend who uses a humble vocabulary and never uses foul words. A girlfriend who honors God with her body and dresses modestly. A girlfriend who loves, values, understands and listens to me. A girlfriend I can love, value, understand and listen to. Not only Im desperate to feel loved and appreciated. Im also desperate to love and appreciate somebody, because I have only given hate and contempt.
 

cinder

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The conclusion is, I may have changed in my outside for the better, but not in my inside. I have always been the same person in my inside. The problem is that I dont feel I can change this. At least not myself. Maybe this is in my blood. I cant fix myself. I have been feeling this for a couple of years already. And this self-questioning has only resulted in depression, low self-esteem and existential problems. I finally learned I cant change myself. But I cant live this way anymore. Im killing my own soul. Im breaking out my own apocalypse.

And this is when I started to think I needed somebody else to change this. So the idea of a girlfriend popped out. I suddenly burst of passion. A potential girlfriend started to become an obsession. I hoped this girlfriend would bring brightness and colour to my dark, achromatic life. I hoped this girlfriend would make me feel better with myself. I hoped this girlfriend would calm my stress with her beauty. I hoped this girlfriend would turn my negativity into positivity. Even if my darkness tried to resist her, I hoped my heart would die of love and get infected with her joy and enthusiasm. It would be a great pleasure, everytime I say myself "Im trash !", to have a precious girlfriend telling me "No you are wrong, you are wonderful !" while smiling and massaging my hand. Oww this would be so charming ! You have asked me what if this girl is sold out for Jesus ? This is exactly what I want. A wonderful Jesus crazy girlfriend who loves to pray, read the Bible and share her faith with me. A girlfriend who talks through her behaviour. A girlfriend who never forgets about her cross. A girlfriend who uses a humble vocabulary and never uses foul words. A girlfriend who honors God with her body and dresses modestly. A girlfriend who loves, values, understands and listens to me. A girlfriend I can love, value, understand and listen to. Not only Im desperate to feel loved and appreciated. Im also desperate to love and appreciate somebody, because I have only given hate and contempt.

Sounds like you are making a mistake very common to humanity: trying to put a romantic interest in the place of God. You don't need a girlfriend (and if such a woman as you dream of does exist, she's very unlikely to find the person you describe yourself as attractive) so much as you need a savior. And no woman, however much she loves you, can take on the role of savior successfully. It just doesn't work well.

But it sounds like you're finally coming to the heart of Christianity which is that we are desperately in need of deep transformation so deep that we can't do it ourselves and must rely entirely on a savior. The one you need to change this is Jesus and you need to start acting differently to feel differently. Want to have more positive interactions with people? Make it a goal to do one little random act of kindness everyday. Just show appreciation for anyone who's job it is to do something for you : mail delivery, grocery greeters or checkout people, trash people, recycling people, restaurant servers, etc. Just one, just intentionally do or say something nice for one person, every day and you'll have taken the first step towards becoming a more kind and grateful person. And a more Christlike person. It's going to be a long and difficult process to change the behavioral habits of a lifetime, but if you want to love and appreciate somebody just start showing a little bit of appreciation to those around you, you don't need to wait for a girlfriend to get started (and if you do, you'll probably quickly find that you're really bad at it even with your girlfriend). When all else fails start deliberately acting like the kind of person you want to be until those actions become your new habits and don't have to be as deliberate. So start small: 1 act of kindness, 1 worship song, 1 minute of prayer, 1 Bible verse (or chapter if you're feeling ambitious) but commit to doing these things regularly and consistently and you will start to change. Also, celebrate the victories, even if it's just I was able to smile at someone when I went out instead of scowling the whole time or I thought better about it and didn't post that vicious aggressive thing I wanted to on social media. Those little bit betters do accumulate.
 
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Thank you all for your posts. Thank you all for having been friendly. I know you have ended up tired of my coldness. I often lack empathy for others and undervalue all the things I have. Im a really dark person. Sometimes Im even disrespectful with others. I hate much more things than I love. Im just furious and bad tempered all the time. Little things can make me happy. I sometimes feel like I want to kill everybody. And sometimes even myself. Im very hateful and cynical. I lack empathy. I treat everybody in a rejectful way. I treat my own family as strangers. I like nobody in this world. Im a jerk. And I dont know how to change this !

I think part of this bad temper comes from my social rejection. I have been the strange of my classroom since childhood. I was really bad in learning and grew up very slowly. I learned to do everything much later than the rest of children. Especially in maths. I would take a long time in adding and subtracting as late as a teen. I never felt skilled in anything. They would often mock me and make me cry. I had not anything special. I was useless waste. And with years this didnt get much better. I still was a very immature boy. My performance was terrible in all areas. And I was really aggressive. I liked destroying things. I liked upsetting everybody, even the teachers. I was pretty much the worst classmate the school could ever have had. I started to be a real jerk. Until true bullies appeared and my life got ruined. I once left school hospitalized after a bad fight I had. They hit me with a chair in the head, making me a big injury in the area above my ear still visible today. I had to sleep in a certain way because entering into contact with the pillow in my injured area made me scream of pain. I changed school with a different attitude. I became the shy, reserved phantom with lots of fears. I never wanted to talk with anybody, even with those who treated me well. I assumed everybody there was a stranger and a potential threat. Some people even noticed the injury in my head. But in the deep, I was still a jerk. I only transformed from a wild jerk to a quiet jerk. As such, I started seeking ways to hurt and rebel against my around in a less blatant way. This is how I resorted to Christianity. It would be my perfect tool to feed my own ego for a time. Everytime I was looking at my classroom, I often thought "everybody will burn in hell and I will go to heaven" and smiled. Soon I assumed it as a part of my identity. I filled my notebook with "Jesus is with me!" drawings in a selfish way, and continued behaving like this for years. I didnt really convert until I was about 19. Beginning in my late teens I got interested in Christianity as a way of life and started to read and learn about it in my free time. I viewed it as the solution to all my problems. So I realized I had to become a better person. I tried to be less selfish and more kind to people. They noticed my change, but I still had no friends or attention. I still feared the society and had feelings of disgust towards my around. They looked too sinful for me. And I feared everybody wanted to lead me to sin. So nothing had changed in my life. Not to say my faith was really weak. Christianity was still a mere part of my identity rather than my way of life. And this never changed.

The conclusion is, I may have changed in my outside for the better, but not in my inside. I have always been the same person in my inside. The problem is that I dont feel I can change this. At least not myself. Maybe this is in my blood. I cant fix myself. I have been feeling this for a couple of years already. And this self-questioning has only resulted in depression, low self-esteem and existential problems. I finally learned I cant change myself. But I cant live this way anymore. Im killing my own soul. Im breaking out my own apocalypse.

And this is when I started to think I needed somebody else to change this. So the idea of a girlfriend popped out. I suddenly burst of passion. A potential girlfriend started to become an obsession. I hoped this girlfriend would bring brightness and colour to my dark, achromatic life. I hoped this girlfriend would make me feel better with myself. I hoped this girlfriend would calm my stress with her beauty. I hoped this girlfriend would turn my negativity into positivity. Even if my darkness tried to resist her, I hoped my heart would die of love and get infected with her joy and enthusiasm. It would be a great pleasure, everytime I say myself "Im trash !", to have a precious girlfriend telling me "No you are wrong, you are wonderful !" while smiling and massaging my hand. Oww this would be so charming ! You have asked me what if this girl is sold out for Jesus ? This is exactly what I want. A wonderful Jesus crazy girlfriend who loves to pray, read the Bible and share her faith with me. A girlfriend who talks through her behaviour. A girlfriend who never forgets about her cross. A girlfriend who uses a humble vocabulary and never uses foul words. A girlfriend who honors God with her body and dresses modestly. A girlfriend who loves, values, understands and listens to me. A girlfriend I can love, value, understand and listen to. Not only Im desperate to feel loved and appreciated. Im also desperate to love and appreciate somebody, because I have only given hate and contempt.
Brother let me tell you something. You aren’t in this world for no reason, no one is tired of your coldness. Especially God, God is waiting with arms open wide brother ready to receive you. He created you for a reason and purpose, not to just be a “stranger“ and it is not really good for you too look at always your imperfections. but look at this perfect truth of God accepting you even as you think you are. God loves you just as you are. And God will always accept you as you are, i saw your other comment of how God helped you defeat porn, that is amazing brother, and sometimes just breath, that too is a gift, look at the small things that we don’t really look at and meditate ponder how God takes care even of the smallest fly that we are all eager to kill, but The point is this, you have worth, unimaginably, God loves you brother, always did, and chose you Millions of years ago to be A child of God, you have a Father now, don’t worry about how you treat your parents or others, or even the hate you get, go to your Father, spend time with Him, He is the One who does the inside work, not you. So just trust Him surrender to Him, in other words trust in His ability to take care of your inside. You were created for a purpose brother, dont worry about how old you are, Abraham was 75 when God called him, and you are not older than the Lord Jesus Christ who started ministry at 30, but just trust God let Him prepare you for the man of God who He called you to be, God loves you, and cares for you, He knows your problems and struggles but Psalm 46:1 says He is there to help you in your time of trouble, are you in trouble? Yes, definitely, but is God there to help, yes. So just fill your mind with the love that God has for you, and spend time with God, gradually you will have a cleaner heart,soul and mind, but you need to spend time with God, yesterday i learnt that the people i spend time with rub off on me their attitude, character,actions,words. But spend time with God(prayer,worship,scripture,fasting), trust in God, Has God ever failed you? you might say yes, but God is the One who gsve you this opportunity to know His love through other people, That proves His love, but these are small things, look to Christ, beaten up, spit at, face beaten beyond recognition,spiritually dying,physically dying,distressed, humiliated, and much more to count but still He loved you, despite all your imperfections, He showed you your value. So the point is, you Have hope, look at Job, God saved Job though his Anguish was great, every single man or woman you see in the Bible have had problems, even the Lord Himself was tempted, and was asking God that His suffering may be taken away from Him, but still all of these people are now ok. So there is hope just look, open the Bible you will see for yourself, don’t allow discouragement, discouragement isn’t from God, Read Ephesians, read 1 Peter, but first read John and get to know the Lord and how He is more, YOU HAVE HOPE
 
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Thank you all for your posts. Thank you all for having been friendly. I know you have ended up tired of my coldness. I often lack empathy for others and undervalue all the things I have. Im a really dark person. Sometimes Im even disrespectful with others. I hate much more things than I love. Im just furious and bad tempered all the time. Little things can make me happy. I sometimes feel like I want to kill everybody. And sometimes even myself. Im very hateful and cynical. I lack empathy. I treat everybody in a rejectful way. I treat my own family as strangers. I like nobody in this world. Im a jerk. And I dont know how to change this !

I think part of this bad temper comes from my social rejection. I have been the strange of my classroom since childhood. I was really bad in learning and grew up very slowly. I learned to do everything much later than the rest of children. Especially in maths. I would take a long time in adding and subtracting as late as a teen. I never felt skilled in anything. They would often mock me and make me cry. I had not anything special. I was useless waste. And with years this didnt get much better. I still was a very immature boy. My performance was terrible in all areas. And I was really aggressive. I liked destroying things. I liked upsetting everybody, even the teachers. I was pretty much the worst classmate the school could ever have had. I started to be a real jerk. Until true bullies appeared and my life got ruined. I once left school hospitalized after a bad fight I had. They hit me with a chair in the head, making me a big injury in the area above my ear still visible today. I had to sleep in a certain way because entering into contact with the pillow in my injured area made me scream of pain. I changed school with a different attitude. I became the shy, reserved phantom with lots of fears. I never wanted to talk with anybody, even with those who treated me well. I assumed everybody there was a stranger and a potential threat. Some people even noticed the injury in my head. But in the deep, I was still a jerk. I only transformed from a wild jerk to a quiet jerk. As such, I started seeking ways to hurt and rebel against my around in a less blatant way. This is how I resorted to Christianity. It would be my perfect tool to feed my own ego for a time. Everytime I was looking at my classroom, I often thought "everybody will burn in hell and I will go to heaven" and smiled. Soon I assumed it as a part of my identity. I filled my notebook with "Jesus is with me!" drawings in a selfish way, and continued behaving like this for years. I didnt really convert until I was about 19. Beginning in my late teens I got interested in Christianity as a way of life and started to read and learn about it in my free time. I viewed it as the solution to all my problems. So I realized I had to become a better person. I tried to be less selfish and more kind to people. They noticed my change, but I still had no friends or attention. I still feared the society and had feelings of disgust towards my around. They looked too sinful for me. And I feared everybody wanted to lead me to sin. So nothing had changed in my life. Not to say my faith was really weak. Christianity was still a mere part of my identity rather than my way of life. And this never changed.

The conclusion is, I may have changed in my outside for the better, but not in my inside. I have always been the same person in my inside. The problem is that I dont feel I can change this. At least not myself. Maybe this is in my blood. I cant fix myself. I have been feeling this for a couple of years already. And this self-questioning has only resulted in depression, low self-esteem and existential problems. I finally learned I cant change myself. But I cant live this way anymore. Im killing my own soul. Im breaking out my own apocalypse.

And this is when I started to think I needed somebody else to change this. So the idea of a girlfriend popped out. I suddenly burst of passion. A potential girlfriend started to become an obsession. I hoped this girlfriend would bring brightness and colour to my dark, achromatic life. I hoped this girlfriend would make me feel better with myself. I hoped this girlfriend would calm my stress with her beauty. I hoped this girlfriend would turn my negativity into positivity. Even if my darkness tried to resist her, I hoped my heart would die of love and get infected with her joy and enthusiasm. It would be a great pleasure, everytime I say myself "Im trash !", to have a precious girlfriend telling me "No you are wrong, you are wonderful !" while smiling and massaging my hand. Oww this would be so charming ! You have asked me what if this girl is sold out for Jesus ? This is exactly what I want. A wonderful Jesus crazy girlfriend who loves to pray, read the Bible and share her faith with me. A girlfriend who talks through her behaviour. A girlfriend who never forgets about her cross. A girlfriend who uses a humble vocabulary and never uses foul words. A girlfriend who honors God with her body and dresses modestly. A girlfriend who loves, values, understands and listens to me. A girlfriend I can love, value, understand and listen to. Not only Im desperate to feel loved and appreciated. Im also desperate to love and appreciate somebody, because I have only given hate and contempt.
brother let me tell you this we all have given hate and contempt to Jesus by sinning against Him, and dishonoring His sacrifice but He still loves us, instead of making this non real girl your idol go to God, that can give you and has already been showering you with His love, a girl can never love you perfectly you will always have problems, God is the One who keeps marriage together, not her love nor yours, wanting A girl is good, but shift your focus off of that non real girl, it only will make you worse. God LOVES YOU, PERFECTLY UNCONDITIONALLY, NEVER-ENDINGLY, read scripture more and pray For you to understand that love more, in fact the Bible says His love is so great that It can’t be comprehended, So forget about all these girls, that’s all trash brother, look at true love. And Ask God to help you to look at it, and underatand it, ask Him He will give it to you. God will never leave you too. As you see in marriage there are always fights always sometimes were people leave each other, then maybe come back. But God never leaves you, why? Even when you leave Him? Or when other leave Him? Because He loves you. The word for love in the Bible is agap, which means unconditional love, then if there is SomeOne so perfectly loving leave that false girl aside and come to God. The moment you start understanding the glimpse of His love, that will be good, A girl can’t satisfy brother, but God doesn’t satisfies He abundantly blesses you, abundantly abundantly satisfies you, we have these blessings in this life then eternity comes that we get to enjoy our rewards FOREVER, why? We didn’t do anything do deserve all this but, why? The answer as you guessed is yes, He loves us UNCONDITINALLY, He created us to shower His love on us, even on unbelievers, So THROW AWAY THAT GIRL, SHE IS NOTHING BUT TRASH, come to God, He will help you, and ask Him for a true wife, not a fantastical one, ask Him for who He has in mind for you
 
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Thank you all for your posts. Thank you all for having been friendly. I know you have ended up tired of my coldness. I often lack empathy for others and undervalue all the things I have. Im a really dark person. Sometimes Im even disrespectful with others. I hate much more things than I love. Im just furious and bad tempered all the time. Little things can make me happy. I sometimes feel like I want to kill everybody. And sometimes even myself. Im very hateful and cynical. I lack empathy. I treat everybody in a rejectful way. I treat my own family as strangers. I like nobody in this world. Im a jerk. And I dont know how to change this !

I think part of this bad temper comes from my social rejection. I have been the strange of my classroom since childhood. I was really bad in learning and grew up very slowly. I learned to do everything much later than the rest of children. Especially in maths. I would take a long time in adding and subtracting as late as a teen. I never felt skilled in anything. They would often mock me and make me cry. I had not anything special. I was useless waste. And with years this didnt get much better. I still was a very immature boy. My performance was terrible in all areas. And I was really aggressive. I liked destroying things. I liked upsetting everybody, even the teachers. I was pretty much the worst classmate the school could ever have had. I started to be a real jerk. Until true bullies appeared and my life got ruined. I once left school hospitalized after a bad fight I had. They hit me with a chair in the head, making me a big injury in the area above my ear still visible today. I had to sleep in a certain way because entering into contact with the pillow in my injured area made me scream of pain. I changed school with a different attitude. I became the shy, reserved phantom with lots of fears. I never wanted to talk with anybody, even with those who treated me well. I assumed everybody there was a stranger and a potential threat. Some people even noticed the injury in my head. But in the deep, I was still a jerk. I only transformed from a wild jerk to a quiet jerk. As such, I started seeking ways to hurt and rebel against my around in a less blatant way. This is how I resorted to Christianity. It would be my perfect tool to feed my own ego for a time. Everytime I was looking at my classroom, I often thought "everybody will burn in hell and I will go to heaven" and smiled. Soon I assumed it as a part of my identity. I filled my notebook with "Jesus is with me!" drawings in a selfish way, and continued behaving like this for years. I didnt really convert until I was about 19. Beginning in my late teens I got interested in Christianity as a way of life and started to read and learn about it in my free time. I viewed it as the solution to all my problems. So I realized I had to become a better person. I tried to be less selfish and more kind to people. They noticed my change, but I still had no friends or attention. I still feared the society and had feelings of disgust towards my around. They looked too sinful for me. And I feared everybody wanted to lead me to sin. So nothing had changed in my life. Not to say my faith was really weak. Christianity was still a mere part of my identity rather than my way of life. And this never changed.

The conclusion is, I may have changed in my outside for the better, but not in my inside. I have always been the same person in my inside. The problem is that I dont feel I can change this. At least not myself. Maybe this is in my blood. I cant fix myself. I have been feeling this for a couple of years already. And this self-questioning has only resulted in depression, low self-esteem and existential problems. I finally learned I cant change myself. But I cant live this way anymore. Im killing my own soul. Im breaking out my own apocalypse.

And this is when I started to think I needed somebody else to change this. So the idea of a girlfriend popped out. I suddenly burst of passion. A potential girlfriend started to become an obsession. I hoped this girlfriend would bring brightness and colour to my dark, achromatic life. I hoped this girlfriend would make me feel better with myself. I hoped this girlfriend would calm my stress with her beauty. I hoped this girlfriend would turn my negativity into positivity. Even if my darkness tried to resist her, I hoped my heart would die of love and get infected with her joy and enthusiasm. It would be a great pleasure, everytime I say myself "Im trash !", to have a precious girlfriend telling me "No you are wrong, you are wonderful !" while smiling and massaging my hand. Oww this would be so charming ! You have asked me what if this girl is sold out for Jesus ? This is exactly what I want. A wonderful Jesus crazy girlfriend who loves to pray, read the Bible and share her faith with me. A girlfriend who talks through her behaviour. A girlfriend who never forgets about her cross. A girlfriend who uses a humble vocabulary and never uses foul words. A girlfriend who honors God with her body and dresses modestly. A girlfriend who loves, values, understands and listens to me. A girlfriend I can love, value, understand and listen to. Not only Im desperate to feel loved and appreciated. Im also desperate to love and appreciate somebody, because I have only given hate and contempt.
brother if you want to love more, you need to love God first. you May ask how can i love God more? You look at His love, as Ephesians 5:26-27, says
“Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;
26 That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,
27 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy andwithout blemish.” He gave Himself for the church, that He might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word, why? That He may present to Himself a glorious church, so look at His love more, honestly me I struggle with this look at His love, but Gradually God will help us both and everyone reading this, so how can i know the love of God? Look at Christ, and read scripture, and from what you have read you will know the True God and Christ, and as you get To Know Christ and God, you will be able to worship, because you will know God truly, then the prayer part, you will be more eager to pray and be more desperate for the Lord, be Desperate for the Lord, and cry out to Him. dont just keep it inside of you but give the burden to Christ, through prayer and then just spend some time reading scripture for a couple of intentional minutes, then take sometime to think about just some small miraculous things that happened in your life, maybe the food that someone paid for you or gave it to you for free, or even the breath you take, your financial help from God, and thank Him, and you can worship Him, not only for the things He did in your life but for what Christ did, and for His love. God loves you
 
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God loves you. Brother instead of wanting a girl like that, Try to be like that girl, though she is fantastic brother,honestly she has some good attributes, loves to pray, read scripture and etc. but she didn’t get to those places in one day, no. But she started with s small step, a small commitment, a small amount of time for reading scripture for example, it all starts somewhere and when you do that too, you might not see the results fast maybe you will but no guarantee, is like sports you do sports, but you don’t see anything though you get healthy on the inside, in the same way after a while things will change, and please ask God whom He wants you to be too, for your plan and purpose, it can be frustrating to trying to act nicely to others but, you don’t do out of obligation but love for the people who youu want to be nice to. dont try to love God, LOVE Him, and if its hard ask Him, and look at His love, Then you will be able to love others, but please and please, first get your priorities right, first God, because when God is first then your inside will change then it will simply reflect on the outside, in the same way that’s also how you can obey God more.
 
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Thank you all for your posts. Thank you all for having been friendly. I know you have ended up tired of my coldness. I often lack empathy for others and undervalue all the things I have. Im a really dark person. Sometimes Im even disrespectful with others. I hate much more things than I love. Im just furious and bad tempered all the time. Little things can make me happy. I sometimes feel like I want to kill everybody. And sometimes even myself. Im very hateful and cynical. I lack empathy. I treat everybody in a rejectful way. I treat my own family as strangers. I like nobody in this world. Im a jerk. And I dont know how to change this !

I think part of this bad temper comes from my social rejection. I have been the strange of my classroom since childhood. I was really bad in learning and grew up very slowly. I learned to do everything much later than the rest of children. Especially in maths. I would take a long time in adding and subtracting as late as a teen. I never felt skilled in anything. They would often mock me and make me cry. I had not anything special. I was useless waste. And with years this didnt get much better. I still was a very immature boy. My performance was terrible in all areas. And I was really aggressive. I liked destroying things. I liked upsetting everybody, even the teachers. I was pretty much the worst classmate the school could ever have had. I started to be a real jerk. Until true bullies appeared and my life got ruined. I once left school hospitalized after a bad fight I had. They hit me with a chair in the head, making me a big injury in the area above my ear still visible today. I had to sleep in a certain way because entering into contact with the pillow in my injured area made me scream of pain. I changed school with a different attitude. I became the shy, reserved phantom with lots of fears. I never wanted to talk with anybody, even with those who treated me well. I assumed everybody there was a stranger and a potential threat. Some people even noticed the injury in my head. But in the deep, I was still a jerk. I only transformed from a wild jerk to a quiet jerk. As such, I started seeking ways to hurt and rebel against my around in a less blatant way. This is how I resorted to Christianity. It would be my perfect tool to feed my own ego for a time. Everytime I was looking at my classroom, I often thought "everybody will burn in hell and I will go to heaven" and smiled. Soon I assumed it as a part of my identity. I filled my notebook with "Jesus is with me!" drawings in a selfish way, and continued behaving like this for years. I didnt really convert until I was about 19. Beginning in my late teens I got interested in Christianity as a way of life and started to read and learn about it in my free time. I viewed it as the solution to all my problems. So I realized I had to become a better person. I tried to be less selfish and more kind to people. They noticed my change, but I still had no friends or attention. I still feared the society and had feelings of disgust towards my around. They looked too sinful for me. And I feared everybody wanted to lead me to sin. So nothing had changed in my life. Not to say my faith was really weak. Christianity was still a mere part of my identity rather than my way of life. And this never changed.

The conclusion is, I may have changed in my outside for the better, but not in my inside. I have always been the same person in my inside. The problem is that I dont feel I can change this. At least not myself. Maybe this is in my blood. I cant fix myself. I have been feeling this for a couple of years already. And this self-questioning has only resulted in depression, low self-esteem and existential problems. I finally learned I cant change myself. But I cant live this way anymore. Im killing my own soul. Im breaking out my own apocalypse.

And this is when I started to think I needed somebody else to change this. So the idea of a girlfriend popped out. I suddenly burst of passion. A potential girlfriend started to become an obsession. I hoped this girlfriend would bring brightness and colour to my dark, achromatic life. I hoped this girlfriend would make me feel better with myself. I hoped this girlfriend would calm my stress with her beauty. I hoped this girlfriend would turn my negativity into positivity. Even if my darkness tried to resist her, I hoped my heart would die of love and get infected with her joy and enthusiasm. It would be a great pleasure, everytime I say myself "Im trash !", to have a precious girlfriend telling me "No you are wrong, you are wonderful !" while smiling and massaging my hand. Oww this would be so charming ! You have asked me what if this girl is sold out for Jesus ? This is exactly what I want. A wonderful Jesus crazy girlfriend who loves to pray, read the Bible and share her faith with me. A girlfriend who talks through her behaviour. A girlfriend who never forgets about her cross. A girlfriend who uses a humble vocabulary and never uses foul words. A girlfriend who honors God with her body and dresses modestly. A girlfriend who loves, values, understands and listens to me. A girlfriend I can love, value, understand and listen to. Not only Im desperate to feel loved and appreciated. Im also desperate to love and appreciate somebody, because I have only given hate and contempt.
And it is good That you have come to the conclusion of not being able to do anything yourself now is the time to trust God and allow Him to do it.
 
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AND BROTHER ONE LAST THING, me i mostly forget about this when I try to do good to others, but when i remember this i say and think, that this person is very valuable to Christ and is loved by Christ, and it helps me maybe it might help you too
 

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Thank you all for your posts. Thank you all for having been friendly. I know you have ended up tired of my coldness. I often lack empathy for others and undervalue all the things I have. Im a really dark person. Sometimes Im even disrespectful with others. I hate much more things than I love. Im just furious and bad tempered all the time. Little things can make me happy. I sometimes feel like I want to kill everybody. And sometimes even myself. Im very hateful and cynical. I lack empathy. I treat everybody in a rejectful way. I treat my own family as strangers. I like nobody in this world. Im a jerk. And I dont know how to change this !

I think part of this bad temper comes from my social rejection. I have been the strange of my classroom since childhood. I was really bad in learning and grew up very slowly. I learned to do everything much later than the rest of children. Especially in maths. I would take a long time in adding and subtracting as late as a teen. I never felt skilled in anything. They would often mock me and make me cry. I had not anything special. I was useless waste. And with years this didnt get much better. I still was a very immature boy. My performance was terrible in all areas. And I was really aggressive. I liked destroying things. I liked upsetting everybody, even the teachers. I was pretty much the worst classmate the school could ever have had. I started to be a real jerk. Until true bullies appeared and my life got ruined. I once left school hospitalized after a bad fight I had. They hit me with a chair in the head, making me a big injury in the area above my ear still visible today. I had to sleep in a certain way because entering into contact with the pillow in my injured area made me scream of pain. I changed school with a different attitude. I became the shy, reserved phantom with lots of fears. I never wanted to talk with anybody, even with those who treated me well. I assumed everybody there was a stranger and a potential threat. Some people even noticed the injury in my head. But in the deep, I was still a jerk. I only transformed from a wild jerk to a quiet jerk. As such, I started seeking ways to hurt and rebel against my around in a less blatant way. This is how I resorted to Christianity. It would be my perfect tool to feed my own ego for a time. Everytime I was looking at my classroom, I often thought "everybody will burn in hell and I will go to heaven" and smiled. Soon I assumed it as a part of my identity. I filled my notebook with "Jesus is with me!" drawings in a selfish way, and continued behaving like this for years. I didnt really convert until I was about 19. Beginning in my late teens I got interested in Christianity as a way of life and started to read and learn about it in my free time. I viewed it as the solution to all my problems. So I realized I had to become a better person. I tried to be less selfish and more kind to people. They noticed my change, but I still had no friends or attention. I still feared the society and had feelings of disgust towards my around. They looked too sinful for me. And I feared everybody wanted to lead me to sin. So nothing had changed in my life. Not to say my faith was really weak. Christianity was still a mere part of my identity rather than my way of life. And this never changed.

The conclusion is, I may have changed in my outside for the better, but not in my inside. I have always been the same person in my inside. The problem is that I dont feel I can change this. At least not myself. Maybe this is in my blood. I cant fix myself. I have been feeling this for a couple of years already. And this self-questioning has only resulted in depression, low self-esteem and existential problems. I finally learned I cant change myself. But I cant live this way anymore. Im killing my own soul. Im breaking out my own apocalypse.

And this is when I started to think I needed somebody else to change this. So the idea of a girlfriend popped out. I suddenly burst of passion. A potential girlfriend started to become an obsession. I hoped this girlfriend would bring brightness and colour to my dark, achromatic life. I hoped this girlfriend would make me feel better with myself. I hoped this girlfriend would calm my stress with her beauty. I hoped this girlfriend would turn my negativity into positivity. Even if my darkness tried to resist her, I hoped my heart would die of love and get infected with her joy and enthusiasm. It would be a great pleasure, everytime I say myself "Im trash !", to have a precious girlfriend telling me "No you are wrong, you are wonderful !" while smiling and massaging my hand. Oww this would be so charming ! You have asked me what if this girl is sold out for Jesus ? This is exactly what I want. A wonderful Jesus crazy girlfriend who loves to pray, read the Bible and share her faith with me. A girlfriend who talks through her behaviour. A girlfriend who never forgets about her cross. A girlfriend who uses a humble vocabulary and never uses foul words. A girlfriend who honors God with her body and dresses modestly. A girlfriend who loves, values, understands and listens to me. A girlfriend I can love, value, understand and listen to. Not only Im desperate to feel loved and appreciated. Im also desperate to love and appreciate somebody, because I have only given hate and contempt.
Hello again. From what you have written above, it sounds to me like you have changed, though it seems you do not see it, and that is rather normal, for we often do not see those things which are "right under our nose." Your growth process may be slower than what you imagine others to be, but real change often is a very gradual process. You certainly are not lacking in self awareness, and that self awareness can help you grow/mature further as you learn to more consistently make good choices for yourself, which would include not only being kind to others, but to yourself as well. Keep moving forward. Grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart, so that you may no longer be a child, tossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by craftiness in deceitful schemes. Count it all joy when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be lacking in nothing. By good conduct, show your works in the meekness of wisdom. Go on to maturity, not laying again a foundation of repentance from dead works and of faith toward God...
 

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and if such a woman as you dream of does exist, she's very unlikely to find the person you describe yourself as attractive
Why ? Im a Christian...
 

Encouragement

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Why ? Im a Christian...
Hold on forget about that..🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️
You haven't even acknowledged any of the content of the last few replies others kindly posted here for you since you explained the lengthy bit about yourself (which I already suspected about you even before you mentioned such details).🤷‍♀️
 

Kauko

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Hold on forget about that..🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️
You haven't even acknowledged any of the content of the last few replies others kindly posted here for you since you explained the lengthy bit about yourself (which I already suspected about you even before you mentioned such details).🤷‍♀️
I dont like writing long posts in night (in Finland its 0:04 right now) I will read them slowly the next days.
 

Kauko

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Hold on forget about that..🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️
You haven't even acknowledged any of the content of the last few replies others kindly posted here for you since you explained the lengthy bit about yourself (which I already suspected about you even before you mentioned such details).🤷‍♀️
What were your questions, anyway ?
 

Encouragement

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What were your questions, anyway ?
I dont need to repeat them all over again but I will summarize what I had suspected.
You have been hurt in life and have been carrying a lot of pain and anger inside you for many years and you actually have a hatred of people and life because of what you went through.You are no longer emotionally aware of peoples feelings and your life has become very dark place over the years.As a way to cope with it all you have come up with the idea of having a partner of a particular type will solve everything for you...which I did say in one if my previous comments (which I doubt you have even read) is nothing more but an emotional projection of what you desperately need..which is this..
'"To be loved...To feel loved and to give love'
The greater the pain...the deeper the need for love..

You are longing for a sunshine female(a therapist) who will be able to give you everything you didnt get from life emotionally and socially I such a way that you will somehow blossom like a flower..
She doesn't exist in the real world and I am sure sexual desires are also integrated into all this as sexual experiences being longer for to ease emotional pain is not uncommon.
This female has become your God and this is all you crave...and are convinced you will really love her.."only for a short time out of gratitude though..."You will end up hating her as you will realise that she cant give you what you imagined"
yer you will end up disappointed,rejected and alone...and confused.I will repeat the motto again
'hurt people hurt others'

The ONLY way is to get actual emotional support from a specialist..
 

kinda

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I dont need to repeat them all over again but I will summarize what I had suspected.
You have been hurt in life and have been carrying a lot of pain and anger inside you for many years and you actually have a hatred of people and life because of what you went through.You are no longer emotionally aware of peoples feelings and your life has become very dark place over the years.As a way to cope with it all you have come up with the idea of having a partner of a particular type will solve everything for you...which I did say in one if my previous comments (which I doubt you have even read) is nothing more but an emotional projection of what you desperately need..which is this..
'"To be loved...To feel loved and to give love'
The greater the pain...the deeper the need for love..

You are longing for a sunshine female(a therapist) who will be able to give you everything you didnt get from life emotionally and socially I such a way that you will somehow blossom like a flower..
She doesn't exist in the real world and I am sure sexual desires are also integrated into all this as sexual experiences being longer for to ease emotional pain is not uncommon.
This female has become your God and this is all you crave...and are convinced you will really love her.."only for a short time out of gratitude though..."You will end up hating her as you will realise that she cant give you what you imagined"
yer you will end up disappointed,rejected and alone...and confused.I will repeat the motto again
'hurt people hurt others'

The ONLY way is to get actual emotional support from a specialist..

Not sure if everything you said is true, but it sounds right. I also hinted on seeing a psychologist in earlier post, to get passed the mental block.

This issue is far beyond finding a mate, that is for sure. It's like fatal attraction to Mrs. Right, who is unable to found. Times have changed, not sure if little house on the prairie exists any more.

Go ahead and dream, if people want to escape, but marriage looks like a 2nd job to me; Not some magic cure all for emotional, mental, and physical needs.

If you can't handle a second job, let alone barely hold down your current job, marriage will be incredibly challenging. I just think of more laundry, more dishes, more bills, more chores, more errands, and more headaches. If you want more, go sign up.

Less responsibility and more naps seem like a better union to me. Even Jesus took a nap.

 

cinder

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Why ? Im a Christian...
Would you want to marry you? Would you as a disinterested party want your sister or female friend to marry someone like you?

I don't want to tear you down, but I do want to give you a serious reality check. Saying I'm a Christian does not automatically make you a good candidate for a Christian woman to want to marry. And Christian women aren't stupid (and many would say have the highest standards for men of anyone out there). You're addicted to fantasies that could best be described as emotional pornography. A Christian woman isn't called to find a man to save and marry him. The whole woman tames and civilizes the bad boy story rarely ends well in real life. And those of us who have lived a while know that it takes more than just two people who love Jesus to make a marriage work. You need common goals and values and complementary personalities. You need to have two lives and then work your butts off to combine them into one functional couple. You say you have much to offer but all you've talked about so far is working a job you don't really like, drinking, and fantasizing about how having this dream woman will save you from all the yuck inside you. What are you even going to talk about as you're getting to know this woman? You say you don't do or enjoy anything else. What happens when she disappoints you and doesn't live up to your expectations or first impression of her? Follow this through longer term to marriage and what about when a kid or two comes along and she's so busy with the kids she just doesn't have much time for you?

Bottom line is a woman sold out for Christ wants a man who is sold out for Christ and living like Christ. She doesn't want a needy, self hating , depressed man who is going to emotionally vampire all her hope and joy out of her with his negativity. So focus on becoming the kind of man such a Christian woman would want. If it works as you hope, you become a better man and have a good Christian marriage. If it doesn't work even the pursuit of such a goal will help you avoid that fate the seems inevitable to you right now so that's still better.