Is this the end for me? I'm so sad (urgent prayer request)

Gonna be honest with my emotions, and my self..

I've been struggling with depression for MANY MANY MANY years and it's getting harder as I grow older. I am very blessed. I have a great life, but I feel empty. I feel alone, I feel uncared for, and not important. I don't think anyone truly sees me or appreciates who I am. I cannot even smile without twitching because that's how hard it is for me to relax.. I am tired of being a light when I feel so dark inside.. I really do not like sharing my personal information on all my struggles, but my spirit literally feels weak and I feel so dead inside... I can't handle my unhappiness, I feel like the relationship with the guy I've been with for 5 years has caused me great sadness inside as well. I just need some prayers please.. I feel like this is the end for me.

Prayer warriors unite!

God intervene, we need your intervention

God intervene
Amen

I can say as one with depression for 30 years your not being willing to share the burden with others is likely a good part of the problem.
Depression causes isolation. Isolation feeds depression. And it's a cycle that takes a conscious choice to break.
Whether it's a friend that, at the very least knows how to be quiet and listening, or a counselor that may have advice and others means of help, making yourself open up can be quite a help.
I spent many years not wanting to share my struggles and I was worse off than when i finally started sharing. Depression is too much to bear alone.
Also educating yourself on it can help. Everyone knows the drug commercial description of depression, but that's only superficial knowledge. Taking the time to learn and understand more accurately how it affects people helped me to feel more "normal" because I learned things I thought no one else dealt with, or didn't realize it was related to depression, were actually more common than I realized. And that took some burden off my shoulders.
So take it from another long time depression sufferer, learn to talk about it

I have suffered with clinical depression since I was maybe around 14 years old.....medication can help but reaching out to others is great ... it’s hard when you feel you can’t be open and honest about what your feeling but I’m sure there are a few of us here to support you ... don’t be afraid to seek medical help too ... or advice... some of it may be organic.. in which case medication can help... God gave us doctors too so don’t be afraid there...

Sorry about that subhumanoidial...I meant to send that to sunlight77...

I don't know what to say sister but no...it is not the end yet... I read some of your posts and you seem like an intelligent/intellectual young woman... This too will pass hang in there sis...


Father my sister Sunlight needs you right now please comfort her please lift her up strengthen her give her the courage to rise up each day reminds her once again that YOU care for her and that She is not alone...wrap her around your loving arms please Thank you Lord In Jesus name Amen ❤


Hey sister Sunlight i know that you don't know me...but from the bottom of my heart I want you to know that I care for you... I will pray for you everyday 😊

Hi sunlight you might find this useful.
It’s one of the better balanced articles out there.

https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/scrambling-for-the-light

It is only the end for someone if they cease to believe Jesus and no longer trust in the Atonement Jesus secured on the cross...

Christians fail to live up to the perfect standards of our LORD Jesus Christ every day of our temporary human flesh lives.. But the Atonement of Jesus covers a multitude of sins and continuously covers those who persevere in their believing and trusting in our Redeemer LORD Jesus..

Hi sunlight, I have struggled with depression my entire life, since early childhood. I think you would benefit from reading my depression testimony. Just click the link in my signature below, underneath the cat gif.

It sounds like the 'guy' your with isn't helping the situation, causing you sadness. If you aren't married I would seriously evaluate the situation and consider making some changes. Depression is an attack of darkness and if someone around you is provoking this, you need to value yourself first. The co-founder of TBN, the world-wide Christian TV station, was attacked by depression.
She was on TV just about every nite and it became daunting. Her husband, Paul Crouch, made her go to Church one Sunday with him, she didn't want to go. During prayer time for those with a request, she said this little gal came up to her for prayer. She had the most tragic history of abuse and homelessness. Praying over this girl and loving her, started to break the depression. Getting one's mind OFF problems and turning them over to God, is a good start. We don't respond to 'feelings' but to His Holy Spirit.
Father God, I lift up my precious sister, Sunlight77 and ask that the Holy Spirit fill her heart with it's fruit of love, peace, joy and faith in your true love and promises, in Jesus' Name, Amen. (we have authority over ALL the works of the enemy, Word)

On the cross of crucifixion, and the garden of wanting to ask God to take the cup away,

Jesus have said, "father, why have you abandoned me"

Jesus felt abandoned, uncared for, alone and empty, and unimportant, Jesus felt all those

Sunlight77, you are not alone,
If you feel lonely, you are not alone with lonely feelings because you are with the company of many who feel measures of loneliness

This sounds desperate, but we are not the only one who feel desperate, many other people feel desperation as well, so same idea, we are in the company of many who feel desperate as well.

And your thread title asked "is this the end of me", one time I have a sleep paralysis or nightmare where I'm about to "black out" due to the inability to breathe, and before the moment I "fade out" I spent my last breath and my focus on this few words "Lord Jesus, save me" and it's as if it is not the end of me, and I had the hope of waking up again

Sunlight, we still support you

God is also feeling your unhappiness, God is also mourning with you

And God is also big enough to handle your unhappiness

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted!

For when I am weak, then I'm strong, because God is strength

Even if you are too unhappy to pray, may God intercede and pray for you

even if you are numb, God can feel you

Even if you can't feel how God can feel you, God can feel you

God’s intervention upon your life injn amen

you probably feel and see yourself as moon dark 66

but God see you as sun light 77

Take a guess when is the moon is the darkest

During solar eclipse, when the sun rays shine the brightest in contrast to the darkness of the Moon

In God's eyes, you are sacred

God declare you innocent!

God also think well of you