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Cuz hes dead rip he got stabbed in jail so sad

Lol how in the world lol how is that?

Im sorry to hear that 😟

No nothing personal lol

Lol i know just picking at ya

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Yeah pass the tissues 🤧

This is one of the stories that i have worked on when i was in college.

I haft to break it down so bare with me.





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*PROLOGUE*

Love can be funny at times, not funny as in laughter but funny because of jealousy. So much goes through people’s mind when jealousy is roaming. Staying strong is important when it comes to someone being jealous. So many refuse to express their feelings. This is where they get hurt, the reason for that is that not many know how to speak with their hearts. Of course this is a hard thing to deal with.

Not many can realize the truth within love. They are blinded because they only think of sexual intentions. These sexual intentions are of lust for someone they really do not love. Love is supposed to be sacred, not based on obtaining the higher hands. When someone is with the one they want jealousy will roam.

This jealousy can cause issues, only if allowed to. When a man is with a woman he adores her with his entire heart. He fights for what he believes in, he always will. So much jealousy comes around in relationships. There is no further expression needed. Everyone knows this, even if someone never fell in love.

Love is something to be cherished, so much that the man and woman are both together and strong. Let haters be haters, you may ask why? Well when you let a hater be a hater they will eventually grow up. When you focus on the truth at hand here, which is your heart. You will notice with love a lot is possible.

With love you can destory the hatred that roams about you and your love. Trust is another issue within relationships. Why worry about what the person you love is doing? All that matters is that they are in your arms at the end of the night anyway. That is where their heart is, with you. Not the other people they hang around with. Many get along better with the oposate sex than their own.

This does not mean they are trying to run around on you. They just feel more comfertable, of course they have friends of the same sex. This can be rare, this is that they can not handle the actions of the same sex. Stregnth is everything, when one person feels like giving up do not let them fall. If the person you love means so much for you, you will never let them fall. You will keep helping them up regardless of what happens.

Happiness is defined as a state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. People tend to choose to walk over the happiness of others. Simply to obtain what they crave. Obsession is like a tendency of fear. Fear roams within a person’s heart when obsession reaches its peak.

Breakfast in bed is like a feeling of being loved. So many wish they had it, although does the appreciation ever reach that far anymore? When you feel lost things seem different, it is like you were ran over by a truck. You can care for someone so much that when you are absent from them you feel empty inside.

Love is a battle in itself; it never helps to have others in the mix. Absence does make the heart grow fonder. Therefore when you are around the one you care about you cherish every moment you two have together. When you long to be beside someone writers block comes and all you can think about is them.

Feeling invincible is like feeling you are not there. You stand there by your lover’s tree, waiting to have a word in. They walk by you as if you are not even there. Thoughts course through your mind of doubt. Is it something to doubt? Or is it something you think too much about. I kept wondering what was going on, I could not breath for hours. The hours past slowly to where I wish I was in her arms.

The hours are slow, the days became longer. I just want to be near her more and more. Wishing she would listen to her heart more? I could only wish that she would. I even know when she is hurting, even when she denies it. A person’s heart shines through their eyes louder than their words of expression.

Reaching for the radio, not much was playing not even a sound close enough to our song. I close my eyes for only a moment, the rain was pouring hard outside. The windshield wipers were on full force. The silence within was devastating. I long for her kiss, her touch, and to feel her heartbeat once again.

They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but I say absence makes me nuts. Being old fashioned is a way to show true love for a woman. I doubt at times when I do not have the one I love in my arms. I doubt to where I wish I knew what was going on. Although absence makes the heart grow fonder, it hurts.

Not knowing what could be bothering the one you love is like a sword. It can pierce your heart until you cannot breathe. While gripping the steering wheel I remember one night I was confronted. Lies are deceiving, that’s the thought that ran through my mind the first moment I heard the news. “She is playing with your heart boy, run away while you still have the chance.” I looked at this woman speaking these words, “I will say this once, no matter what you say I want no part of.” I slowly walk away; no matter the cause jealousy roams more than ever.

“What is with these people?” I said out loud, looking around grateful no one heard me. In my deep thoughts words tend to fly out. No matter what I am thinking, you will know what I think of you if you ever cross my path. I turn down the review mirror; I look deep into my own eyes. “Stay strong man, no matter what stay strong.” I say to myself slowly letting the grip loose of the wheel.

A bad feeling was roaming in my heart; I sat on my porch while looking over at her. She grasps the picture that was nearest to her. Said and prayer and disappeared. The door slammed, I thought someone got to her emotionally. I sat there in silence, wondering if I have done anything wrong.

Ten minutes have past, still not a sound. I sit there in silence wondering if she may have fallen asleep. I am a little confused at this point; confusion gets the best of me at times. “I am here with you my love, no matter what anyone says.” I whisper out loud, praying she can hear me.

*CHAPTER ONE*

BE TRUE TO WHO YOU ARE

As I walked through the corridor of the bus station, I had one thing in mind as I noticed a couple kissing. “I only wish that was me, what is so wrong with me.” I sat my luggage on the floor; my next transfer was in the next hour. “Hey buddy, I know you do not work here. Can you watch my luggage for about five minutes please?”

He looked up and smiled, “sure thing brother take your time. I’m not going anywhere.” I shook his hand, and then headed to the men’s room. I opened the door, walked in slowly letting my eyes find their way to the sinks. I turned on the water, washed my face and looked in the mirror. “What is wrong with you, I do not see anything wrong with you. Is it you or those women?” I said silently to myself, my eyes were blood shot I felt like I wanted to die.

The hurt that is inside of me is like a knife that is piercing through my soul. I take in a deep breath, closed my eyes, and sighed. “Get a grip, get a grip.” I whisper to myself while gripping the faucet. I then open my eyes to look around, hoping no one knew how I was feeling. There is so much that I wish I could have done.

Going home is not what I wanted; being in her arms again is what I craved. Wishing, hoping and praying that this was all just a dream. Closing my eyes tighter, I bring myself back to reality. I turn the water off; it was staring to steam up the mirror. I place my hand on the right hand corner, and I begin to wipe the steam off in a diagonal fashion.

When I got to my face, I looked deep inside on my eyes. I smiled, turned around and walked out. Feeling devastated can cause you to have problems, these problems can and will affect your way of life. So much has over taken me, I feel up and I feel down. This is a constant cycle to where I feel like giving up.

I get tired of seeing everyone happy except for myself. Being happy is something I want, not what I want to hide from. Many people choose to ignore the fact of true happiness. Many do tend to hide because other people do not like them. Do not do what makes everyone else happy; always do what makes you happy. You are not on this earth to make people happy. For if you where the world would be worse than what it already is.

“Thanks buddy for watching my luggage.” I said handing the guy a ten dollar bill. He smiled and said, “No brother it was my pleasure. Do not pay me, payment is not required. Here is my card, if you ever need anything?” I took the card in hand, “Thank you Mr. Andrews I sure will call you if I need anything. “ Mr. Andrews was dressed in an all-black business suit. He was on his way back from a trip in Florida Keys.

His hair was slicked back, playing on his blackberry; he stood up and stuck his hand out. “It is nice to meet you, Mister?” I shook his hand, “The name is Jason, Jason Blackburn.” That was the last time I saw Mr. Andrews. Bus number nine was he bus in that collision on route ’46 on that Wednesday evening. He sat in the front; it made him feel more comfortable.

People come into our lives, maybe for a short time. That time makes an impact on your life. It can change you, even when it is an angel in disguise. I have always tried to understand what love was about. At times I kept coming back to square one. This is because love is not meant to be completely figured out but explored.

Ah i am home, it has been a long one. No work tomorrow so that is great.

I can get much neede sleep. Anyway feel free to ask questions or even post comments on what i write.

Its always available and i hardly ever take offense but i know i jave sometimes before thats cuz of misunderstandings.

However, im cool with everyone on CC.

Tonight that same dude that wen against me started being rude to my supervisor i started getting mad chz were im from u respect that authority.

U do as u are told and i am already given some lee way because i know my job.

I get to give peope breaks and i make sure team work is team work.

This guy kept watching the time for a break i explained that he dont get his break at a set time every day. Its rotated one person at a solid time.

Lol then he gets mad and goes to supervisor and starts running his mouth she told my lead and he told me that he is going to be outta there.

I gained so much like and respect from peoppe they ALL got my back on everything.

Other than that this forum is open for discussion. Any questions can be asked and any answer will be given respectfuly.

God Bless

Sounds like you have things are under control at work, you understand what you have to do, and you diligently perform the work. It is a good thing to be respected at work. The angry dude is a malcontent and hopefully management dispatches him to the door. Guy is like a cancer that can spread. I am very much in tuned with team work. Keep up the good job.

Yeah pass the tissues 🤧