Hi all.
I am really tentative about posting about this, but I am kind of desperate at this point.
So some history... I was addicted to pornography for 7 years until I was set free by God. It has been about 1 1/2 years since then. The problem now is that I average about 1-2 wet dreams per week. This is probably due to my 7 years of bondage and the fact that I am lifting weights now (thus creating more testosterone). I would sometimes even say that I feel like I got raped, although not quit as intense. I feel ashamed and disgusting after every time. I know that since I feel a deep remorse and can't really control it that I am still counted as righteous, but sometimes I do have inklings of doubt. Even if I am still in right standing with God, it doesn't fix the fact that after a dream such as these that I am more vulnerable to sexual images that may appear throughout the day (which are pretty much unavoidable in today's society). Even women dressed in skin-tight/revealing clothing can make me start to go down that path before I start feeling shame and force myself to look away. I have actually HALF-seriously considered the pros and cons of making myself go blind so I don't have to go through the endless temptations, which I am sure are contributing to my dreams. (Even though that sounds really serious I don't have any bad mental health problems; don't freak out) I would appreciate any sort of advice on how to overcome this.
Thanks a ton,
ColoradoMinesCole