I hear you, and it sounds like you're carrying a bit of a burden. I'm sure your a patient and mature Christian who tolerates more than your fair share, but let me encourage you to continue your good work
I can assure of this! The older I get? The less
tolerant I seem to be with the those who have (supposedly) confessed Christ before men? Yet, are unable, or unwilling (which
really burns my arse...like a candle about "that" high
) in "picking up
their cross", and going
through Christ unto Our Father! Just as Jesus has His "priests!" So has Our Father in Heaven! There are many reasons why, I suppose. Refusing to allow oneself to be vetted by the Lord of the Harvest, to allow oneself to be "spanked constantly" with the "winnowing forks", but, rather believe that these "events" don't occur, until the end of the age, and so are regarded as when one's flesh body, is looking at the bottom side of a lawnmower? Constitutes, in these eyes, anyway, one being "willingly ignorant!" Having said that? I can more
fully understand Our Heavenly Father's "wrath" in forcing
some Sheeple, to believe a
lie!
(sighs) "Buy 'em books, and send 'em to school?" "What do they do?" "Jump on their desks, and chew on the covers!"
As far as going through my other post? Ask God, in the Son, to help you make less the "void", in the/those "mansions of abidance" (meno, in the greek), you are currently in,
"Caused" by (the) traditions of man. And, you may "see", a lessor number of "birdy's", that swoop down, and gobble the Word! You may feel, a deepening of "spiritual" roots! Roots that eventually, encircle the "stone", and
crush it! You may see, as it seems you already have, and do, a "rising" up in the "way", or hard-packed ground, in
spite of it! Or, another analogy, the more one "grows?" The more the Word of God, that is "thrown" at ya? The
more of it, that
"sticks!" Also called spiritual discernment.
I may be preaching to the choir, as far as your concerned. And, offer my apologies, if I have done so. But, at this point in time, and my own spiritual growth. It is (a) platform that I have and use, in my efforts of "enlargening" the Kingdom of God, and Kingdom of Light! In
spite of, and "
in the face" of Nimrod's digital "tower of babel!"