I’m not a Christian, I’ve never been to church or had anything to do with any religion. But I keep thinking about God… And maybe it’s just because my life is hard right now.
**Please skip over this paragraph if reading about mental illness and death is disturbing for you**
I survived a nearly successful suicide attempt a few years ago and now the depression and bad thoughts are back. I’m providing 24/7 care to my severely disabled grandma. I’m exhausted all the time… Grandma keeps declining… I feel like I’m surrounded by death… and that’s probably feeding into my depression too. I haven’t left the house since October.
Anyway, for a couple of weeks I’ve been feeling a strong pull to learn about God. It’s kinda weird, maybe, because I don’t know that I even believe in God… yet the idea just keeps coming back. Can anyone relate to this feeling of being drawn to God? It’s really confusing because God stuff is completely foreign to me. And I don’t know what to do about it. So I joined this site hoping someone who does have a firm belief in God can give me some advice. If anyone could recommend bible passages that you find comfort in or that would be helpful for someone who knows nothing, I’d really appreciate it.
