Hello, I'm 26 years old and I'm a sister in Christ if that's important to know, lol. I've always been isolated or somewhat isolated, I want friends and I want to be apart of a church family. I don't know how to be apart of a church near me because Of the many fears in my mind ( safety environment, transportation, capabilities,..etc.) I try talking to people online but things always seem to turn or get to a point where I feel its unhealthy, I ended friendship and pause relationships based on the fact that I don't have Christian accountability.. But I can't seem to get my self into a church because of all my brokenness and what feels like are disabilities. I've been trying to go to therapy but I seem to be getting delayed on the doctor's end. All the things I feel I have to do, with all the things I don't have start to overwhelmed me where I don't do anything. This makes me feel like I'm negative things I know I shouldn't mention.. I've been stuck like this for a long while so this is my attempt of seeking Council or some form of feedback. Thank you 🙏💙