Blain, grace and peace to you dear brother. Would you have imagined, that very Sunday, I felt the same way. The speaker was a master on the subject and I knew instinctively I had to somehow not let anything get in my way for that invitation till 2/3 the way through the message, I just couldn't take it. I felt like running but walked out of the sanctuary to the surrounding corridor where I listened for the remaining message till the invitation.
Little did I know, such unrest was quite unnecessary. I haven't been back at that Church since the late 80s only online but I need to mention, some Pentecostals used to like to espouse fear as I quoted, receiving the Holy Spirit ''with the evidence of speaking in tongues'' can be, as it was for me very upsetting. Seldom, do I ever hear anyone bring up '', , do all speak with tongues'' in the Church?
I still relax for it. But as to that zeal for it, I would advise yes, God still blesses the expectant heart, so don't cast that confidence for it away lest peace has departed. He is still the same, a rewarder of them ''who diligently seek [the Holy Spirit]''. If someone were to mention that to me having that unnecessary cloud of unrest over me at that time, I would have been delighted knowing, I was no less a Christian than anyone who had received Christ as Savior.
May I take that one further, far better knowing currently, we are exactly where He wants us and knows how to bring things to pass which might not be associated with that specific ancient gift, but another ancient gift, even as an interpreter of a Church message in tongues, any number of gifts as He wills for each of us specifically, so wonderful. Jesus walks with and in you I am confident, and also confident He also still likes to reward them who hunger with a hunger He put there in the first place. Hope and wish that day is a mighty one, the day He appoints for Blain!!